A usual working day

Today is another sian (boring) working day.

I’m thrown with the task of coming up with proposals AGAIN! I thought this was a job supposedly done by SENIOR MANAGEMENT? Why do I keep being dumped with such responsibilities when I feel like I still know the minimal things in this industry?
I feel good having such opportunities but yet I feel handicapped. I have ideas swimming in my head but then I do not know the feasibility or are they too far-fetched? I dunch know and I dun wanna appear stupid or cranky in front of my bosses when i finally do preach the ideas to them.
It’s do or die. So I will do. No choice - rules of life.

Just ended half an hour of game-cube gaming with my colleague Edmund, using the excuse "trying if it works" =P.
Played a fighting game with Mario, Pikachu and Ice Climber as the main characters and they are suppose to fight with each other by slapping the opponent out of the screen Very very cute.

Now is end work hour, weather outside is gloomy. From my office I can see - central Singapore looks like its raining. haha.

I have new gadget to play with! The Microsoft Dopod – it has built in 3G, Bluetooth, wi-fi and many others features that one way or another has been missing in the current PDA’S. The ONE AND ONLY bao ka liao PDA. Just laid my hands on it this afternoon and it will be mine for the following few weeks - only. huhuhu, simply love my job :p

Before I end, I think I will be changing template again. I screwed up my current one, see the “Friends Ranting” it’s not aligned! Pissed off… my html skills is not that power afterall.
Any kind souls who can help me would be greatly appreciated.

Life is as such...

In my short 21 years of living on this beautiful place called earth. I’ve been disappointed many times but seldom will I be disappointed to the point where I get disgusted.

So far there is only one. And now there is another…
Sadly that recent one was a person I was with for past 2 years.
My latest Sherlock Holmes stint uncovered more truth than I wished for and finally finally I know I’m at the end of this journey. I feel relieved.

I am disgusted, bewildered and shell shocked. It seemed, overnight, he became the devil’s advocate and it scares the hell out of me.
That being said - if I had the chance to redo everything again, I would STILL choose the same path I took to find out the entire truth.

I feel so drained, so tired and very frightened.
I dated a schemer, who handles things in ways so appalling, I feel nauseous when I reflect upon it. The whole truth, the complete situation, the entire picture is clearly embossed in my head. It frightens me to know, he is a person of such. I am in denial to believe that he is that way.
I wished many times I never had to see this, in fact I never knew he had such a sordid side. I stare at our pictures, in place of fond memories, I feel revolted.

I feel fine, now that I have the whole picture.
Am I hurt? Not so, in fact I feel it is none at all. It sounds artificial but I really do feel at peace.
Knowing he has someone else doesn’t pain me. I feel neutral. In fact I am bemused at how unaffected I am. I am unsure why but a part of me; sincerely wish that he and she would turn out well.
It sounds weird and incoherent but I really do wish him to be happier.

I’m surprised at my feelings. Am I that gracious? I wonder… Perhaps it’s the jazz music, or it could be the spirit of Christmas, or just the love of friends which makes this world less bleak.

When I’m upset - I cry, whine and sob; when I’m cool and composed – I doubt myself on my own words and graciousness. Live is such – so full of contradictions.

Perhaps the anger might arise again - I really won’t know. But I’m happier today..

Where is the love?

Its friday today! I've been slacking ever since morning...

I have no mood to work...
I went for a 2 hour break...
I read every single person blog in my list...
I played a game of scrabble in games.com...
I have the emptiest msn list today...
I have no one to chat with me...
I am counting down to salsa class...
I bought a pair of heels during lunch in preparation for salsa...
I walked to Maxwell (which is freaking far by the way) in my new shoes...
I walked back from Maxwell (which is freaking far too) in my new shoes...
I have work to do but it is FRIDAY!!

I love christmas as i always did... It has been 4 years since i celebrated Christmas as a SINGLE - but i'm not worrying cause erm...I HAVE FRIENDS that loves me!

I have nothing interesting to say or share.. I am just really bored.

Life never fails to amaze me.
I marvel at the happenings everyday, every hour, every minute..
Life is too wonderful to be sad. Life is too short to be sitting down here to blog. But it is the best i can do right now. I am very impress with blogs that are long and descriptive.. I wish i could write like them, describing every single moment, detail and thought of my day in words. Those are definitely 100% more interesting to read compared to mine..

I wish i was more interestingly descriptive but i am absent-minded... I can think about a million and one thing this moment and forget about it totally in about 20 mins or so... so when i start a blog with a topic in mind, i would have forgotten what it is that i wanted to share by the time i'm at the 2nd paragraph...
I am lazy too - My blog often seem to lack opinions and viewpoints but if you know me enough, you will realise that I am too opiniated for my own good.
I wanna share wif all that i am a thinker and i ponder in depth about issues, i laze on my bed and think and try to find solutions to solve or just ways to make myself feel better. But the thing is often, before i find my answers - i fall asleep.

I am according to someone.. too bo chup..
I am more bo chup than ever now...
I am really tired... In the past weeks...
I have learnt to stop myself from crying.
I have learnt to stop myself from loving (it is a really painful process).
I am not ready to love again.
I am now trying to move away from the source of pain. But is it what i want?

Do we all become enemies when a relationship sour, must we?
Do we become strangers again when we are no longer a couple?
Is moving and hiding away really the best solution and best way for one to move on?
Why is it that 2 person can fall in love and not maintain that love?
Why is it that when someone wants you bad enough, they will do everything to get you and when they have you they want someone else?

Is the world really that evil? Or am i just too idealistic for the world.

Me

Before i end my night..

I went to KL without a single ringgit in my wallet - i survived and made it back alive...Darn proud!

Good night world...

KL last hour.

Day 3 in KL.
Slept at about 3 yesterday and woke up darn early today. Earliest among all my colleagues. Nothing to do at the moment, they are all still asleep thus decided to blog a little.

I had a nightmare, a recurring one, about ex-marker.
The scenes were always different but the content was the same as last. It felt real, in it i was calm one moment, screaming and shouting the next and before i know it i was awake. I was startled to wake up to a dark calming silence after the exhuasting shouting in the dream and for that split second i forgot i was in Malaysia.
I wonder how did that dream come about and why does it still comes? i thought i moved on well and am happier but why does my sub-concious still harbour those ill-feelings and questions which i already gave up finding an answer to? I feel lost and afraid...
Perhaps i will never know or perhaps time and age will give me those answers.

I'll be back in lovely Singapore later today. Past 3 days was eventful and enriching. I'm here for both leisure and work. Work was to attend the 'Ericsson Developer Seminar'. As with all seminar there were loads of dry talks on Ericsson plans and direction and how developers can work their products to align themselves with Ericsson bla bla bla bla bla~~. Why we were here is coz we provide the security solution for content owners to protect their contents, to protect their hardwork and ensure that they get to keep what they earn and not lose their precious creative creation to piracy etc etc. Boring stuff to read but interesting stuff to me! :p
I'm loving my job more and future seems promising too. Hopefully.

Anyway I'm shacked up at a darn beautiful resort(advertise for them a'lil its called Cyberview Lodge Resort and Spa) which is an hour drive away from the city central (like travelling from Changi to JB but we are still in KL) - they have relatively nicer air, beautiful pool and a balinese rustic theme. Its really fantastic with huge rooms! Will post pictures of this wonderful place when i get back.

Monday yet again...

Still at home now.. Late for work... With a reasonable valid excuse! keke man i love life..

A song that reflects my thoughts:

Light In Your Eyes Lyrics
by Blessid Union Of Souls

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Am I Happier? Happier I am

Something a friend shared lightened my heart in entirety.

He said:
“Whether we end up together or not we both will end up with someone we truly love eventually, we both will be happy. Even if we are together again we will be happy still and if that is the way planned for us, why feel sad now?”

It’s a very positive statement which if I had heard it sooner, I would be less of a wreck.

I’m happiest today, for a long while.
Haven’t blogged for a long while too.
I’ve been busy living life to the fullest despite struggling with the sadness and pain I feel deep within.

I’m happier today, I really do feel so.

Been watching every movie that is now showing – Prime, Harry Potter and even Emily Rose (Yes... I know I’ve said you can kill me before I’ll watch but it’s not scary after all ;p).
Singlehood means i can watch movie with anyone without guilt and i no longer have to be disappointed by promises or delays.

Time to time, I still get confuse and ask questions on why it happened. But i brood over it less.

I question, am I happier this way. Perhaps I am; I’ve just yet to realize it. Perhaps this is the life that is destined for me at 21 – to make friends, enjoy their company and be around for them in happiness and sadness. Now i have all the time to do just that.

The silver lining behind the dark clouds - I found friends that care so much it warms my battered soul. Thank you babes and dudes for sharing, for consoling, for comforting and for being around. I love you all! *hugz*

Club on and on and on and on....

Ahhh!
Been clubbing and drinking soooooo much the past few weeks.

Clubbing trips to date:
- Zouk for Halloween on Monday
- Ice Cold Beer on last Friday
- Zouk Opening on last last Friday (read more of it at Lily's blog)

As with all clubbing sessions. ours is always filled with fun, filled with plenty of drinking, games and jokes.

I'm feeling sleepy and lazy so i shall let the pictures do the talking again.
All the pictures taken in Zouk was done illegally coz they have this nonsensical no photo-taking rule.

But heck it! We took pictures anyway! Nanny nanny poo poo!

To move on

I feel old, mature and aged with the amount of thinking I have done.
The past week has been tough but thankfully there was the closure that I very much needed. I dun hate him except those few days when he refused to give me the answers that I need, besides, hating someone will just make me a miserable person. I’m not used to miserable.

I got my answers about that girl, when it started, who she is, what she is, how she is, where she is and why? I have 2 sets. One side is lying. Not sure which, not gonna find out either. The more I probe, the more it hurts. He is still denying, till this point of time, claiming that my source was ranting bullshits. It does not matter anymore, even though I still think how much better it would be if there wasn’t a third party, having one makes everything – irrevocable. Perhaps that’s the way he wanted it. Anyhow I’m moving on. Have to.

Thinking back on how we started, I was an innocent and idealistic 19 years old and he at 24 was an enthusiastic Aussie undergrad. We courted for few months and eventually got together after 2 semesters. We were genuinely happy despite us being physically apart. We would send parcels, flowers and self made gifts while he was away, talked for hours after hours everyday. We talked about happy stuff, about our future, about his return back to Singapore for good. I was happy and could see that future we painted.

But somehow, things changed, as they always will. No matter how hard you try to convince yourself it didn’t, it still will and you still have to brave up to it.
Our relation did, without anyone of us wanting to say a word bout it. We allowed ill-feelings to buildup till one of us could no longer breathe and wanted out.
It is no body’s fault that our love dimmed. We did constantly remind each other that we still love, but perhaps the lacked of doing sweet wonderful nothing for each other resulted in what it is today. It’s not what I wanted but it’s just too late to do anything anymore.

Thoughts I shared with my friend earlier today:
“Unhappiness? prob not. I dun hate him anymore.
its just wrong timing for us both.
We have loved. Thats all that matters.
Now is time to move on.
I am disappointed that we will never be able to complete what we dreamt about together.
But its ok, disappointment is the best kind of emotion to have now, cos disappointments are usually short-lived.So I am sure, I will get over this disappointment soon”

Sad songs fit; happy songs are out of place.
My list will be playing happy, hopeful tunes soon.
It’s a matter of - how long is soon?

Did he ever truly love me? I will never know.
I know I did and I’m glad.

I really should move on..

Perhaps i haven't

Its new. It hurts. It will be gone soon.
New phase. New chapter. New me will be soon.
I will be strong.

Wilson Philips sings:

I know there's pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don't ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things'll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You've got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin' your worries pass you by
Don't you think it's worth your time
To change your mind?

I have found PEACE

I feel better, after two days of fluctuating moodswings.
I consoled myself as much as i could and realise, the situation is not really that bad? I can take it afterall. I am happier.
Thank god it only took me two days. Thank you too to my precious babes that spent time with me to make me have a clearer view of the whole issue.

I emailed alot today, long lengthy mails that i never thought i could write. I'm surprise i still have words left to blog. I probably used up every single verb and vocab i've ever known in my entire life, to draft those emails so filled with angst, frustations and unhappiness.

All is fine now, i have decided to brood over it no more and move on.

Work today was same as always - mundane.
So i ended up having loads of time to draft a two and a half page email, while at the same time reading an ebook entitled "Dairy of He".

This link was sent to me by Ching few months back and apparently, it was so interesting that Ber got addicted to it as well. SO out of boredom and with thousands of thoughts running thru my mind, i decided to read it, to rest my mind a bit.
I'm lazy to give a review about it but i must say its something that's definitely worth reading even if you dun really have time to read. I got Lily addicted to it too, she was SO ADDICTED that she refuse to work till she completes all the episodes - thinking that there are only 20 episodes to read.

Sorry babe, there are 260++ episodes at the moment, that means you have a long way more to go!! Jia you wor. Let me know when you have made it that far. :p

;(

The tears have dried. But the pain still lingers.
Tomorrow still goes on.
Trust will have to learnt from scratch - all over again.
Foolishness never leaves the fool.
I am that Fool.

So very sick

I've been sick! Since Sat till now.

Already had 3 days of leave. And still sick..

For the ladies in my life

When Wendy mention on her blog that Rek left a message for everyone of us.
I hurriedly went to my email to check for mine. I couldn't find any and was honestly a tad upset that i could have been left out(we weren't close frens back in sec sch days) and kinda worried that i might have accidentally deleted her mail away.

Today while reading around, i found out i got a short and sweet message on Rek's blog for me, I wasn't missed out! *Grinz*

Here it is:
"Priscilla--We never had the opportunity to be good friends from before, but that is slowly changing. I admit I never bothered to like you or be your friend because I thought you were arrogant. But I am glad that we hang out now, because I now know for a fact that you are not what I thought you were. You are sweet and intelligent, Prissy..and I am still looking forward to knowing you and understanding you better. "

Dearest Rek,
Perhaps you felt i was arrogant coz i talk too little and talk to people selectively? I wanna say, i'm not arrogant, never was and never will be, especially not to you! Looking back, i was a painfully shy and low-esteemed girl during our sec school days, i never really spoke out loud or talked more than necessary and perhaps that could be why you thought i was proud? Anyway it really does not matter anymore what matters is that you no longer think of me this way.

I'm just thankful now, to fate for bringing us together in this short life-time of ours, for me to know more about you. I thought you were really fierce back in CCSS days but as we start meetin up once in a while, when we were already in tertiary ed, i constantly find my opinion of you changing, for the better.
You are funny and sOoo extremely sweet, something you did a few weeks ago is still deeply etched in me. This is briefly how it went:

Rek: Hi Pris, can i ask you a quest?
Pris: yup, shoot?
Rek: How are you?

Though it was just a normal message, the feeling at that moment was one that just fills my heart with so much warmth, i wanted so much to hug you then. keke.
Thanks Rek, that message really really made my day, so much.

A message to all my dearest girl pals:
Amber, Ching, Denyse, Irene, Jo ann, Lily, Mich, Peijia, Rekha, Wendy, Zizi
I'm ever so grateful to the great spirit above for bringin you babes into my life and mine into yours.
I'm optimistically looking forward to having many more years of fun times with you all, learning more about your likes, dislikes, appreciating you all for who you are and growing wise with each other.

I'm eagerly anticipating the future when you girls will start:
- gettin married and i can all be part of ur sister gang and tekan ur husband
- little families of your own and i will get to see how you look when you are pregnant, see how your baby looks like, who does the baby resembles and maybe even be godma to your kids?
- growing old and i can accompany you all to play mahjong or go on cruises or just relax around at each others place, simply chatting and gossiping till our time in this world is over?(not really eager on the growing old part but it will happen eventually)

haha.. so surreal and so nice. :)
this is an ideal life story of mine.
and i sincerely hope all of you will appear in every chapters of my life till i aged and till my time is up.

Take care babes, I love you all!

Wedding Bliss

Just back from CEPE's wedding dinner. Extremely exhausted. Now waiting for my hair to dry, hence decided to blog a little while waiting.

I am feeling sick! I can't breathe and my throat is killing me. Think tomorrow have to take MC liao, out of de many MC's i took before this is the first time i'm actually genuinely sick. haha.

About the wedding, Marker was one of the brothers and seems like he had loads of fun, despite him being sick as well.
The wedding was held at Raffles hotel and the food sucks. I was told that each table costs 1k, i can't help but feel that the dishes was just atrociously overpriced, what we ate was what you can find during the 7th month ghost festival kind. In fact i think maybe the 7th month kind also might serve even better food than them.
So what if its Raffles. Shame on you Raffles Hotel! *bleahh* Lousy!

Took a few pictures on my hairstyle. I styled it differently tonite as i wanted a more elegant look instead of my usual messy-spunky-cool-chic look.
I think failed miserably in achieving the EREGANT LOOK ah, my styling was just comb all my hair to the front and have a parting. Looks like a pretty pathetic attempt *sighz*.



I think cutting my hair kinda shocked everyone. And everyone is associating me to celebrities with short hair.
Current count of association so far is 3; Most say i look like Joanne Peh, some say i look like Felicia Chin and one said i look like Candy Lo.
Hmmm, flattering in some ways Yes but i really would prefer people just stick to saying i had a nice haircut.

Unsure why i'm so anal today, usually when pple say i look like so and so, i would just take it as a compliment but today i got quite frustrated when one of the lady at the dinner said that to me. I think must be her way of saying it to me that got me so frustrated.

Anyway hair dry liao. GO bed lo, hope i'll feel better tomolo morning.

Good night world!

Fun + Booze week

It has been a while since i stayed home on a Sunday afternoon.
I'm enjoying every single moment of it.
Everything is so quiet, so calm and so peaceful with only the tranquilizing drone of the fan and happy chirping of birds. I'm entirely basking in this soothing and therapeutic cloudy afternoon. Ahhh.. so nice!
I'm reluctant even, to play songs on mp3 list, for fear of spoiling the serenity of this wonderful afternoon.

This week shall be officially declared Booze week.

Been drinking hell of a lot this week. As much as it is great fun, i probably should not consider this kind of fun as long term solution for the spice-up-pris-life campaign. Reasons being drinking is bad for health, being a passive smoker is not exactly very fun and also the bloody smoke makes my eyes tear!
Sad truth is, in such places, passive smoking is definitely unavoidable. I'm eagerly anticipating the law that bans smoking in clubs/pubs/discos to kick start. When will it start!!! When, when, when!!

Last night, i went for drinking and dancing at Devils Bar with dear Lily and Ceyu and tons of other Ceyu's fren (June, Janson, Jonathan and 2 others). Wah they super pro, ordered a whole bottle of martell and finish it up in like 3 hours? And they kept ordering more and more drinks.
Ceyu's friends were really nice and fun and quite lousy at playing 5-10's i must say, haha. They kept losing to Lily and me! LOSERS! kekeke

We got picked up by 2 groups of guys last nite. Not bad sial. haha, still have it after not clubbing for so long. Other than the shot of ego-boost they gave. I suppose thats the first and last time i will ever hear from them again. I've never been keen on getting close with friends known through clubbing, especially those guys who come up to know you. My believe is, if they have the guts to come up to you this once, they will have the same guts to go know others when u aren't around. So ideally for me, no clubbing guys will be my partner for life.

Another thing i noticed last night was my threshold of alcohol seemed to have increase.
I was constantly drinking but at the end of the party i didn't feel a wee bit of the puking senstation. Hurry to that! Hehehe. I must admit though, i was super duper high after everything and a great way to verify is by the way i talk.
I was talking at the top of my voice(shouting) even though the the person i'm talkin to is standing right beside me, hahaha.. so funny, I guess this explains why my voice is so hoarse now.

Before i end the final post for this week, just wanna thanks all those involve for making this week a super happening one for me! (Lily, ber, ching, wendy, jia, ceyu)

Love ya guys!

New Skin

Yay! After changing my hair, i've decided to change my blogskin too and i've also added a new Wish List column to the space, for me to keep track of what i wanna get so that i will not overspend (hopefully).

Its Saturday! Usually i dunch even touch a computer on Saturdays but well, today is an exception for some lousy reasons caused by A LOUSY someone. I won't go into that to upset myself anymore.

After using the default hotmail web account for close to 5 years and constantly wondering and cursing why can't Msn allow sorting of the incoming mails by date? I realise it was there along! All i had to do was to simply click and the word "Date" and everything will be sorted accordingly.
I am truly amazed at the duration it took me to find out that one simple function. haha 5 yrs of close to everyday usage and i never found out about it till now! Big Joke ah, ahahahah.

Went to Chingy's 21st birthday party at Tattoo Pub last nite. It was nice with free flow drinks complimentary by Ching. We had loads of fun as usual and loads of pictures were snapped too. So instead of elaborating using words, i shall let the pictures speak for itself. Click here to see them!
and here for more.

Before ending this post, i would like to make known to the world that I LOVE MY NEW LAPPIE TO BITS! It is the reason why i'm bloggin more often and also why i have a new cool blue blogskin.

p.s Thanks Ching for inviting me to the party! I had fun!

My weekend

This post was suppose to be posted up on MONDAY! it somehow dragged till today which is WED! how time flies!

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I’m trying out this new or probably-have-been-around function of blogger that allows me to type, and publish my post direct from Microsoft word. Sounds cool ah! Haha.
I’m so so tired today! I’m suffering from Monday blues plus the sleeping late on Sunday night.

A rundown on my weekend, which miraculously was pretty fruitful

Friday

Took half day off work to go cut hair! I cut it – SHORT! I dyed my hair too, so it’s a cut and dye for $129 bucks. EXPENSIVE SIAL but I’m happy, I love my new style, hehehehe… so narcissistic..

I look FRESH? That’s the expression that everyone used to describe my new locks? bangs? Cut? (What’s the term for short hair anyway!?)
Following the hair cut, I met up with Marker to have dinner with his family ah Hua Ting Restaurant at Orchard Hotel (we were suppose to have sashimi buffet!!!). It was a freaking expensive dinner which left me with a half filled stomach at the end of it but since I’m not the one paying, I cannot complain much, can I? :P but then again, I must say the Peking Duck was very very yummy *droolz*

After dinner, I went to Kbox for short singing sessions with long-time-no-see friends from my younger day’s part-time job. It was superbly fun and somehow it made me miss the Nokia gang a lot! We used to do that too, close to every weekend! But now that most of us are working, making time is always the biggest and most troublesome affair. Haiz…

If you guys see this – I miss ya all, Lets meet up soon

Saturday
Went to get my lappie at where else but Sim Lim Square with technician Mark! Finally! Got a HP laptop with a pretty basic configuration that I hope will serve me well for many years and hopefully serve me adequately if I ever get to study next year. Physically, it does not really appeal but specifications wise I guess it’s the most value-for-money lappie one can get. See what I mean when I say I’m the worse kind of shopaholic, my shopping list covers such a wide range – from makeup to clothes to gadgets!?

The lappie is not officially mine yet, Mark paid for it and I will have to pay it back in installments with a $149 subsidy, not fantastic but still better than nothing BUT of coz the more the merrier rite? * SUPER BIG HINT*

After getting the laptop and slacking for the rest of the afternoon, we went out with his daddy to an Italian restuarant called Naxos located around China Sq.

Would wanna write more but i'm super shack now. More work tomolo! Nite peeps!

Someone once commented that i was too idealistic. I couldn't agree more. I used to feel that statement was a compliment.. Now it is not a word i would like to be associated with

I need to shit la...

Yay! Blog no 2 for this week.

Feel like giving my blog a new look again. But those free online templates are all rather diff to integrate or maybe i'm just lazy to integrate? hurhurhur.

*Sighz* I'm constipating again!
I feel sick, the shit inside me just refuses to release itself OUT into the world of the smelly sewage!
I feel so stuffed, being once a BIO student, i am able to picture how unhealthy and awful my body must be feeling. I can picture how the excess shit particles will diffuse thru my large intestine into my blood stream and contaminat my blood. The shit-particle filled blood will then move all around my body, thru my hands, legs and FACE!
Haiz, looks like i will never ever be close or even near to achieving the perfect flawless face those celebrities have. It is all but a fantasy. *shrugs*

I envy those who can shit every single day, every single hour and every single minute as long as the feel like it.
I shit on an average of only 2-3 times out of the 7 days a week.
i wanna shit i wanna shit i wanna shit! *Sobz*

Yesterdays was my mum's birthday! Happy birthday mum (as if she will read).
We went to a vegetarian restuarant located somewhere in Geylang St 11, its definitely the best vegetarian food i ever had, simply no doubt about it.
They made the effort to name their dishes in all the very nice sounding '称语' and unlike some yucky vegetarian resturants, their 'fish' and 'chicken' was something else other than starch or cornflour, which makes it even more tasty, even for me, an anti-vegetarian food person.

This post took me the whole morning to complete.. I think my afternoon will be spent modifying my blog skin, since i have nothing much to do in the office anyway.
Its the lull period again! Yippee

My life!?

I'm sad close to depress!

My life left me? Where did it disappear to?
It is no longer interesting, no longer filled with fun or romance or even laughter.
Its just disgusting mundane and I HATE IT.

What is wrong, what went wrong??!
Why do i feel like i'm the most boring person alive!?
I logged onto friendster, went thru a few friends picture gallery and saw cheerful, happy pictures of their ever so happening life, which made me feel worse about mine.

Being Priscilla, having friends and loads of fun are the reasons why i'm alive even though i have a super yucky job.
But now, i'm getting neither of those two and still have the super yucky job.
HELP people!!!
Help me bring back the zest i need in life! Sighz :(

Band times were good times

I miss De days..

Stupid school holidays

I'm starting to dislike school holidays! Not only do i no longer get to enjoy them, i have to suffer the effects of it too!
On day one of school holiday, firstly you will feel a decrease in de no of seats on de train. Then u will see a sudden increase of young children runnin around bus stops and train stations and Accompanyin these kids will be their mums aka aunties..

These aunties are seriously de most irritating people on earth!
They know nothing about standing on a side of de escalator to allow people who are rushing to catch de train to pass. They just stand there with their child on de same step and block de bloody escalator, forcing people to stop behind them and bring it to their attention that they are blockin de bloody escalator!

Is it really that hard to educate them that it is only gracious and considerate to be just stand on de left side of an escalator for that short few seconds if they are too lazy to move while on the already moving escalator??

I am so mad because while on my way to work today, i was trying to rush for de train that was due to arrive in 1 min. On de escalator from higher ground to de underground i was blocked by 5 groups of couples hogging de escalator, so after several 'excuse me' and 'thank you' i finally got to de bottom of de escalator( approx 30s).
Once down, I continued RUNNING to the card tappin machine and noticed from de other end of de control station was a mum and daughter rushing as well. They reached the gate few seconds before i did.
After we went thru de machine gates, we all saw that de train has docked and doors are open, remembering the fact tat they were running as madly as i, i assumed that they will continue to run towards the train and thus decided to not act like a 'Kan chiong' spider and try to squeeze my way past them.. Unfortunately for me, it was a grave grave mistake. De daughter wanted to continue running but was stopped by the irritating mum.
So there i wat, stuck behind them both while they contemplated whether to continue running down that short flight of escalator, staring at the train sound the door closing warning, close its doors and leave.

I swear i could have caught that train if the mum didn't stop her daughter and if both of them were considerate enough to keep too one side of de escalator and if both of them didn't block my way..
Because of them i was late for work, and had to waste another 7 mins waitin for de next train to come..Just my luck. :(

Comex 2005

Comex 2005 is here!

Hope i can get some great deals! So much electronics to buy.
Been wanting a laptop ever since the one Marker passed to me crashed 3 months ago right after i completed my new blogskin.
Been wanting a new digital camera too, since the current 3.2 Megapix Kyocera camera of mine SUCKED super big time. Ever since i got it, i've been to the repair centre 5 times and its only bloody hell 3 years old.
Frankly, I'm not too sure how long i had it and i cant really be bothered - FREAKY PIECE OF SHIT!

Can't wait to go Comex! Comex! Comex!

Yesterday while i was out with a few frens(names unmetionable due to our dark secrets!)we saw a NUT or some may call it balls and scientifically they call it testicles. So yup, we saw tht disgusting red round thing dangling in mid-air from an uncle's shorts. It was totally obscene!

Blog what!?

Blog!!!

Amber asked me to blog!
I seriously can't think of anything to blog.

Haha, I finally thought of one topic! (Time between this line and the previous was approximately 20 mins)

Apparently my colleague at work is a faithful blogger too, right at this point of time when I'm blogging, she's blogging as well.
While I blog discreetly, i.e. pretending like I'm coming up with new proposals, using word application to type and making my fonts ultra small till its painful even for me to read, she blogs directly from the blogger browser thus permitting me to unintentionally find out that she's blogging too!

I wonder what she blogs about? Maybe she's blogging about me doing nothing and surfing the net for junk reads to entertain myself, while she seems to have endless amount of work to do? Or maybe she's blogging about her job and number of crazy calls she has to attend to every other day?
Generally her job scope seems a million times more interesting than mine, she gets to meet clients from various music labels, gets to be the first to get hold of music CD's, gets to design and troubleshoot websites, gets to talk to many influential people in the music industry etc etc.
Me? I sit and rot in front of my Compaq LCD screen, desperately trying to look busy.

Frankly speaking, its not my problem what she blogs about, but I do know that one day, if ever we both exchange blog address, this post with have to disappear. Or maybe she will feel honored that I mention about her?

Anyway thru the past week, due to some work related experimentations, I downloaded all Free Media Players available on the webbie, including the latest iTunes.
The introductions on the website sounded super wonderful with radio streaming capabilities and functionalities that can help you remove duplicated songs and so on and so forth.
With SO many wonderful promised features, the very excited I just can't wait to try out the applications.
When I'm finally done with all downloads and installations and every other thing in order to get my iTunes to launch. It launched!

Initial reaction - wah liew;
The application interface looks like QuickTime, same coror, same buttons, so innovative lei, make everything silver colour only mah, who dunno. But I told myself nemind, as long as can get rid of duplicate songs (I have a lot of same songs!) and got function that allow me to become DJ (can stream to poor ah ber whose office got no lalio) then it's good enough for me.
The application was kind enough to list out all the duplicate songs that I have but not kind enough to let me delete it away. Nemind again. So I went on to explore how to become a DJ but I never see any function that even comes close to that description and when I clicked on the 'Help' link that took me to a tutorial that just repeats almost everything that was said in the introduction page. So clever lei.

So my verdict is as much as I Love Apple and IPOD, iTunes needs a better interface and help menu. Else hype so much also no big deal.

Lelong @ Timberlux Centre

Had a go at being a Pasar Malam store owner last weekend.

Boredom in the office

I have an hour more to go before work is officially over.

Ideally my office is also a place where i slack, in my comfy corner on my comfy office chair. I sometimes feel i'm much more busy at home.
If my bosses ever check out the sites that i visit daily, they will probably hit the roof - games sites, friendster, forums, blogs after blogs etc

I do have work to do everyday but i'm super unmotivated, so usually i'll only start After which i'll start multi-tasking between work, msn chatting, reading blog and surfing forum, checking out other peoples' gossip on FLOWERPOD! Go have a look, its pretty informative, bitchy and plain bimbotic. Nothing taxing on the brain and good enough entertainment for a bored soul.

And yah, despite doing so much things everyday, I'm still bored.
Half an hour more to home. can't wait ah~
Zzz..

I remember...

1. our first Valentine's date at Buckaroo and a night out at Sembawang beach thereafter - the day I received a huge bouquet of lilies, a first for me =)
2. the day when a parcel from Aussie arrived at my home, containing a super huge yellow Pooh Bear without clothes
3. the day when I went home to find something luminous and glowing mounted on the wall - that glowing object spells out my name with a star above it
4. days when I would out-of-the-blue receive a stalk of sunflower from him for no reasons whatsoever
5. days when seeing a smile light up on my face would make him just as happy
6. days when every waking moment spent with each other, doing absolutely nothing was euphoria to us both


This post would have been more momentous if it was posted on the 3rd of July.
2 years ago at this date, Marker and I made the decision to be together.
Like all relationship, we had our share of ups and downs, happiness and sorrows.


I'm not sure of my intention for writing about this. I feel that such nice and sweet actions should be documented in words as well as in memory, just in case my memory fails me in future.
Memories that he loved me enough to do all those stuff for me, will remind myself of why i loved him when the going gets tough.

Haircut!

A shot of me after my 3! hour long hair cut!
Notice the cool flowery pink bag too!

Wacky Wannabes

A shot we took after our lousy dinner on ** July 2005 at Bugis _Seiyu. Posing in front of the cameras with our super retro, bug-like shades. Having some relac moments after the horrible experience at AH CHEW HOTEL (its in bold coz it really sucked and I wanna make it prominent so that you guys reading will remember its name and not commit the same mistake as we did)


Dinner that day was settled at Ah Chew Hotel because we decided to have a budget meal since the turnout that nite wasnt as planned.
Verdict of Ah Chew Hotel Foodcourt - dun ever go, even if have the money to spare. Its a freaking lousy place with lousy food, lousy menu and the not very budget prices! 3 bucks for a bowl of noodle!? Seriously, I think the foodcourt serves nicer food for that same amount.
To top things up, the service was de worse - the super old school uncle refused to let us change our seats(we wanted to change coz it was bloody warm sitting under the air-con) just because we didn't have enough people to occupy them. From a certain viewpoint - that reason is legitimate, we should be more considerate and not hog seats which allow more people to sit, but then, even when we suggested that we move just two tables to make it the right size for us to sit. The loathesome uncle still refuse!
What de...Can someone please just ask him to wake up his idea?

Hong Zha Dan (Red bomb)

Got a sms from an unknown number, it went like this: "wanna come to my chinese wedding buffet on **July Sunday at my house".
My first thoughts were - who's this bloody prankster.
I remembered receiving a similar message of this sort, once, from a fren who gave some ambiguious date along with that message, thinking that it was this same fren i called back all geared up, to give him some piece of my mind for playing the same old trick on me AGAIN!


Budd this time, this message turns out to be a TRUE wedding invitation. Shocking!
Where are the days when parents have to tediously visit house-to-house to pass relative and friends the red wedding cards along with cakes. Erm.. wait, do they do this for wedding or for a baby's first month celebration?


Anyway back to point.
His is the second shot-gun(S-G) wedding i know and what is most shocking is that - his wedding is categorized under "Marriage at 21". I didn't confirm with him if its a S-G thingy but its obvious enough.
Who the hell would wanna get married at the age of 21? Especially when he's a male and he's serving the nation and only earn a meagre income? His pathetic paycheck might already have problem feeding himself let alone feed two others?


My assumption might be wrong(which i highly doubt), it might not be a S-G marriage afterall. But hey! i did do my research before making such unflattering comment k.
Right after i hang up the phone with Mr Bridegroom-to-be, I went to call up the rest of the gals - bitched and analyze(not that much analysis was needed) that it should be it la. Totally no one in the right frame of mind would wanna tie themselves down at 21, especially not this guy i know.


That being said, its scary how circumstances can force people to make such rash decision for a HUGE milestone of one's life. I pray to de Supreme power high above that non of my friends (myself included) will ever have to make such redundant, rash decision ever.

Take care dear frens and practice safe sex. =

Spring shopping

Went shopping for a little while after work yesterday and i ended up with nothing..

I've been shopping around since sunday.. Trying to get my pie of de good bargains happenin around sunny singapore.. But alas that was not to be..
Wanted to get new pair of shoes(notice the 'S') but very unfortunately nothing on the shop shelves seemed to live up to my expectation and so i ended up going home empty handed on both Sunday and Monday. AHhhLamak!

Felt so constipated after how much i've gone through trying to convince myself that i needed retail therapy and why i should spend that amount of money just on shoes alone. I went home empty-handed with no new purchase to swoon and hype over, its super unbearable.. Sobz..
What the hell happen to all nice, funky, classic looking shoes in Singapore!
This is so wrong! Now i will need a double dosage of retail therapy meaning more shopping for me! Yay!

To him who had to endure that few hours of endless walking and many of the talking-to-oneself moments when i abruptly disappear into shops checking out items on window displays .. Solley!

Record breaking spendings

DBS is back with its online payment system and I have just spent $400 in ten minutes! All without moving my ass of the comfy office chair.

Within the short ten minutes i managed to be filial to my parents by giving them my share of the home maintainence, i managed to clear my 3 month old phone bill and i too managed to reduce my paycheck to 2/3 of the actual amount.

Good one! Spend so much without even lifting a toe.

Boredom

I'm bored, my blog is boring, my blogskin is boring and I am bored and my blog is boring and ....
Need to look for new blogskin - hopefully then it will increase my blogging frequency.

Crazy @ Harry's

I've been so lazy!

SO much has happened from my last post till today that I decided to move on and leave my post about my Tioman trip as a draft for the time being.

Friday night was super wild, fun and crazy! Nokia had its first ever promoter meeting in a bar, where food and booze was free!
It started out pretty bad; I was treated like an ex-Nokian by Janice for some unknown reasons which I have yet to figure out - it could be due to my new boring job I have landed myself in.
I was refused entry into the training room and not given a chance at having a go at the lucky draw. Not that I really mind whether I got the lucky draw coupon or not but I was very upset to be treated like a stranger and it’s especially hurting when I think of how much I love working for Nokia and my devotion to our promoting team (Awww...).
Another issue which bogged me was the silly lie that I told Francis (the new manager in charge), after my ex-Nokian treatment I felt so bad bout my job that I lied to him when he came to chat and asked what I am currently doing. Dumb me, of all people to lie to; I lied to the manager IN-CHARGE, Stoopid… Looks like I will not be appearing in any Nokia meetings in future.
These depressing thoughts troubled me all the way till booze session started. After which it was just fun, games and drinks and more fun, games and drinks. It was a totally wild and super fun night with me downing glass after glass of alcohol, and playing loads of ‘five-ten’, ‘007’ and ‘directional scissors-paper-stones’- i realised tat i totally sucked at the ‘directional scissors-paper-stones’ and '007' or perhaps i sucked coz i was drunk. Hmmm..I think that must surely be the reason la, i'm seldom that lousy u know.
By the time i left the party, I was feeling super lightheaded. Thankfully Marker came to pick me up.
I had superb fun that night; the kind of fun I missed out on for a very very long time. Loads of pictures were taken, thanks to camera provider Tze Peng.
I must say we Nokians seriously do know how to party!! three cheers to Nokia Ambassadors!

Diving soon!!

Happy Vesak Day to all! A Nice sunny afternoon today is.. I'm now at ntu canteen B.. Waiting..
Where the hell is everyone - its 2.15 pm and no one is here yet!
Decided to blog abit, not a very good idea cos i'm only left with 3 bars of battery.. But i'm bored n i don't have a magazine with me..
I tink i'm starting to be somewhat an introvert.. I'm feeling nervous, cos there's surely gonna be loads of interaction n socializing between everyone on the trip n i dun feel i'm up to it.
Then again I'm sure everything will go well, i'm just being paranoid.
I see someone i know. GTG.

Stay tune for more updates!

Mobile blogging

This is so cool! I'm now blogging via my mobile phone.. Thanks to de unlimited data usage plan provided by my company.. If only posting of pictures is just as easy..

Good luck still seem like a thing of de past, good thing is i'm alive, kicking and making de best out of my life.. Some newsflash.. Marker got his new civic (will post picture soon) and i got my new wallet compliments of him as well.. Thanks Marker!
I'll be goin tioman from de 23th-26th for scuba diving!! thanks to de lobang from Ian.. So looking forward to it! Face to face with fishes! Haha.. Can't wait for monday!!
I'm signing of now.. Reaching my destination.. For de last time.. This mobile blogging is way cool! Hahaha...

Bad Luck Chain

My luck seems to be getting from BAD to WORSE.

It started when i lose my wallet - and it continues on till now.
OH God, i hope this chain of misfortunes will not cause me my life! <-(Drama Mama Syndrome)

My second SIA interview was another real SUAY (hokkien for unlucky) event to add to the bad luck chain.
I was late for an hour, despite waking up early to prepare and leaving my house 45 mins earlier to catch a cab. I think i was a victim of a real cruel joke that day. Imagine waiting close to an hour for a cab! Even calling for a cab turned out to be hellish - all the cabbie hotline was engage that fateful morning.

At the training centre an hour later than the stipulated time. I went into the centre, got hurried into an area for the kebaya test and changed into a fitting kebaya which was too tight for me, but being already late, i didn't wanna risk being late for my turn to be scruntinize by two ladies - one: an ugly, sour-faced hag who appears to not know the meaning of SMILE or she's probably having an extreme bad case of PMS. The other lady was so much better compared to that scary hag.

Inside the checking room, the ladies were looking a me, asking me to turn around, walk, smile and stay still for them look and to tick on a checklist. No reasons were given after the rejection, i wonder what is written on there.
Wonder why i didn't make it - was it my bra? Coz I didn't wear push up?
could it be my moles? More than 5 molies in a square centimetres? thats why i failed?

Its frustrating and disappointing and its even worse when u dunno what went wrong. But no matter what - my chance of being a stewardess is over and ready to be archived. This experience has been enriching and fun for a while and now its back to my job.
Currently - I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping i will chance upon something even better oppurtunity.
I seriously hope the silver lining behind the dark clouds will come out soon, i'm starting to feel tired of encouraging myself.

Soccer Shitheads

Today will be proclaimed my worse day for the year of 2005. Everything that could go wrong went TOTALLY wrong. Today was totally disastrous that i wish to mention it no further. I'm looking forward to tomorrow and hopefully today is the last of my recent spate of ill-luck.

Even joining my two younger brothers out for a game of basketball - a seemingly fun event, turned out to be otherwise due to some selfish soccer fanatics who HOGGED the whole basketball court. Shit heads all of them!

Vent...

I'm blogging very much less than what i want to. I truly enjoy blogging and everyday i will blog in my mind and by the time i get home i would have clean forgetten about what was on my mind earlier on.

For me, blogging is now an outlet for me to organise my thoughts and make myself have a clearer picture of issues that are bothering me, instead of a channel for me to let my frens know how i'm doing...which is not true as well coz by reading the issues that bother me, they too can know how am i doing.

My life is getting pretty mundane and my new job can claim all credit for this being so. I've been complaining so much about it, till i'm beginning to irritate myself but there really isn't much i can do except to complain to try to soothe my frustrated soul.

A good news that happened today - SIA called me back, despite my irresponsible behaviour of missing an interview date. I'm real thankful for this second chance but yet, this chance left me in a state of confusion once again.

A friend once commented that i still have doubts about what i want in life. Its not exactly a flattering statement but its a statement which describe me truly. I wish i was more sure, looks like its about time i spend some quality time to think about it else i will only be wasting more of my precious time.

Hmm.. i dun really have any point to make in this post, but after so much effort spent typing out this post. I will keep it here for the sake of keeping my blog alive and i'm glad creating this post took my mind off issues which had been churning inside my head.

Off to bed now.. Good night fellow earthlings~

Top Five ways to avoid disappointment

1. Prevent oneself from having expectations.
2. Prevent oneself from having expectations from anyone.
3. Prevent oneself from having expectations from anything.
4. Prevent oneself from having expectations from anyone or anything.
5. Prevent oneself from even having the thought of having an expectation.

My 21st birthday celebration... 

Of a blog that went Stagnant..

Been a long while since i last posted something.. My last attempt is still saved as a draft among the many posts which i have manage to churn out in the past months. Due to this reason i have yet to thank all my dearest frenz who took their time out and graced my birthday party... so here goes... Thank you guys! I had great fun and hope you guys enjoyed urself too!

My life has been great, i sort of got head-hunted into my current company, "sort of" is used because despite the similarities like the other hunted one is also human and has been invited to join a certain company, i get a meagre pay in comparison to that other being who gets hunted.
About the job, thankfully i'm adapting well and to some extend, enjoying my work too! This company is very different from most companies i know and i must admit there was some form of culture shock when i first started work.
Culture shock 1 - starting work at 10 - 11 am and having lunch at 12.30pm.. The working hours is soooo FLEXIBLE and its especially suitable for people like me with great time management skills. *kekez*

Culture shock 2 - tea break at 4 pm.. or any other when you feel lethargic and need some caffeine to boost your mental strength...

Interesting..

Interview...

In life its always weird how sometimes when you want something really badly you end up not doing very well for it and trash all chances of getting it. And then again sometimes if you went ahead with something only because you have already committed to it, the result could turn out to have a good outcome.

Recently i went for an interview with SIA. With not much enthusiam but with God's blessings i made it pass the first two rounds, one mass interview with 9 other girls and another personal interview with an uncle who asked me to tell him more about myself.

I got selected, I felt real lucky that i was one of the two people selected for round two, out of the nine others who was being interviewed together. In the first round, we all had to talk on a topic given to us which is "Where is the one place you would very much like to visit", the girls were all very eloquent and well-read naming all the different places they wanna go in the country which they have chosen and i am so totally impressed. For me, i was stumped and instead of choosing a place, i said everywhere would be fine as long as its out of Singapore shoreline and that it seemed, worked well with the interviewers (it can only be luck!).
The style of interview was a new experience for me. I feel i did better than what i expected of myself, talking about myself to 11 others whom i just met, thankfully i didnt blank out but yet still manage to make sense of the words that was running inside my head at that point of time. Now that the whole interview is over and i made it... i'm wondering, what is it they look for in the applicants...

That was briefly how my interview went and now for the best bit of the interview.....
I mis-read the arranged date for third interview and the various test and so you should be able to guess what happens after... (",)

Oh well... :)

Time flies...

Its scary how the time moves at the most amazing speed. It feels as if i've just posted my latest blog yesterday but in fact my last update was made a week ago.
This week seemed to have zoomed past, without me noticing.

Met up with my poly mates Alex, Benjamin, Junhong, Lily, Zane and Zizi.
It was really nice, i think its my second time meeting them since we graduated in June 2004. I thoroughly enjoyed myself with them, it feels great crapping around and laughing at each others' silly jokes. After so long...

Alex was unusally quiet that night, he seemed like a changed man - even his favourite topic "SEX" didn't seem to make perk up..
Benjamin is our very own Singapore Poly Slyvester - Haha.
Junhong as usual, seemed very far away and always having views very different from us. Entertaining us quite abit with his abstract ideas and highly complicated ideas.
Lily as usual was the groups chatterbox, no gathering would be lively without her loud jokes.
Zizi changed alot. She looks chio'er now. Aussie water must be better.
Zane joined us later after work. I think she slimmed down a little bit.

Will post up the pics as soon as i get it. It has been really fun. I love those guys and those great years in poly. It really hard to get everyone out these days, but i'm glad the few of us made the effort to meet up.

Really looking forward to next meeting, which i hope is soon!

Another week gone by...

Week two of my non studying days.
Getting really bored of stoning myself at home. Thank god the weekend was pretty fruitful.

My friday was spent with Irene, Jin Ping and Szehan. It was fun with Renes singing her renditions of yanzi songs. Jin Ping doing renditions of JiJi, Jacky and Andy songs and Hanz doing renditions of everybody songs.
After the session we went shopping for Goose (korean star lookalike) bird-day present. A crumpler bag costing $149 - i never knew crumplers were so expensive but luckily its shared among 8 of us =D.
Seems like I'm gonna be very broke in the first quarter of year with everyone's bird-day round the corner.. but since its for friends - its worth it! *sheehz*

Saturday was spent at Prisca's 21st birthday celebration - the fourth person for month of january with 2 more still on the way. Anyway the party was nice, with good food and free flow of alcohol. The highlight for the night, other than Prisca's cut cake session - would be the chit chat Jo and Mich.
Jo came up with a really ideal suggestion of chilling out at each other's house every friday when we own a place of our own in the coming future. Well babes, lets do make that happen for real!

Sunday was the best! I went to the first ever soccer match of my life. Singapore vs Indonesia - Singapore won!
The match was simply amazing, action packed full of adrenaline rush. Singapore made several impressive attacks that literally had me sitting on the edge of the wooden planks. Though they didn't manage to score, it was still a great display of skills and teamwork, all that for a mere seven bucks was so totally worth it!
The stadium - full capacity with sea of red supporters; rounds after rounds of Kallang waves
The Singapore Fans (including me) - exhilarated, euphoric and energetic!
The Indonesian Fans - only one-eighth of the entire stadium
The referees - KAYU and BUTOH (not sure what it means but everyone was shouting that when he gave Singaporean players yellow/red card)
The Singpore players - skilful, dedicated and POWERFUL! Lionel Lewis rocks!
The Indonesian players - skilful and rough play *frown*

Good game... good game... good game

Growing up..

The pain that growing up brings.
Is something sometimes i wished i never had to experience.
How i wish, the tears i now shed is because my mum does not allow me to have the candy on the table. The tears will dry and my in less than an hour my kiddy brain will forget that the incident ever happen.
But alas, growing up means shedding tears which never stops flowing for all the stupid reasons which i too am trying to make sense of.