birthday for Iren

Now for something happier, i met up with the star searchers on Sunday to attend Iren's birthday party. It was nice to see all of them after so long and even nicer to find out that... we still had common topics to talk about! :P

The night was a casual affair with lots of food, booze and fun. Being true entertainers Andie, Desmond and Marcus kept Jeneen, Iren and I entertained with their silly antics. Unforgettable but not so funny when i try to spell it out in words, so i will not try to attempt doin so either.

During our chat I'm proud and glad to annouce that:
-Andie, Desmond, Jackson & Weilie are on TV every Friday evening at 8pm. Hosting the Variety show 奥游北京! Watch it to help boost rating!
-Marcus has a role in an upcoming drama show with Christopher Lee, that will be showing after the the current 9pm show 迷图 ends its run. so do look out for him when you're watching!
-Glamourous, fashionable, demure Jeneen has 2 fashion spread on U-weekly and an upcoming Swimwear spread in Cleo Magazine June Edition. So do look out for tat too!

Soooooo... do watch/buy/lookout and support them okie!!!!!

Before i end.. here's some pictures from Iren's bday party.....

about Finally its the Finals~

Finally its all over. The winner has been crowned and its no other than Mr Andie Chen 'Guan' Jun.

I should have known from the start, his name says it all. Now i know besides talent maybe name does help increase chances of winning too. ;p

Besides the really good performance by the 6 of them, I had a really good time at the post event party too! Saw president Nathan and wife up close. Saw Felicia up close and snapped a picture with her too!!! groupie -_-

the one about the times i miss.

I miss those times. I miss the people.





Its almost over soon. Its time I move on.

the one about competition behaviour analysis...

The silver lining behind the darken clouds.
To the eliminateds, never give up pursuing!

Last night was the first episode of the quarter finals. I was there as usual (really what’s new?). Result wise.. Being the patriotic Singaporean, Of coz i was glad Andie, Jeneen & Weilie got through. Though Kola being booted, was kind of surprising. I always thought that the judges loved her. But from past experience, having a juicy role seemed to be the factor that determine one's fate, instead of how well your acting is.

Besides mourning for the eliminated parties, I was more visibly upset about the vibes some contestants seemed to be emitting. I went home last night with a heavier then usual heart. The ugly truth was “showhand-ed” last evening. Besides the few peeps that I’ve bonded closely to, a few others seemed kinda “very surface”. Which I seriously don’t understand why, like why do they even bother doing that and to ME too? Hello?! I’m out, eliminated, no more fighting. So would a more sincere smile and conversation kill you?

Anyway doesn’t matter, I’ve made my share of good friends and ultimately, a competition will always be a competition. Hidden agendas, jealousy and snide remarks are just a few terms that will always be associated with competitions. It was just me being idealistic and silly to think that our relationship will survive the tribulations of the competition. But Humans are ugly, especially when you want to win and you know perhaps you might not have the whole package of deserving it. So you try other means to get there.

Moral of the story: Learn to open your eyes, be kind to fellow beings but also be clear of the situation and of coz be selective.

As Sze Han says... Life suck!

the one about Star Search Top12...

Last night marks the final round of the Star Search Preliminary Round. Somehow everything seems calmer, less crying, less drama - or maybe its just because there are lesser people to crowd the stage as the week passes on.

So now all 12 finalist are out! Can check out the Star Search webbie to find out who they are. Congratulations to all of them, please do me a kind favor and NOT ask me who I think will win.

While surfing through some polls on xin.sg, i came across the photo shoot that we did during the earlier days and playing back those images of what went on at the photo shoot that day brings a smile to my face.

Looking at the photos, I remember what a hard time we had that day, trying to angle our face to capture the light, so that we will all have seemingly super sharp jawline.
To top it off, we all had to do the Jawline jawline thing without smiling (aka acting cool) and for the first time in my life, i felt that not smiling was the hardest thing to do ever!
Because of the way my lips were structured, i keep getting comments like, eh this picture cannot la, she's smiling!! and i would be thinking "eh! i never smile wat! I really never smile! why you all keep saying i SMILE! arrr!!"

In the picture above the message we were trying to give is "we are cool, but we are not proud beings", sooooo wat do you think? Did we manage to give you guys that "FEEL" (a term frequently used in the industry).

the one about post competition

My Gal Pals with their respective partners, you girls rock!


To my dearest friends & family, no words can ever describe my gratitude & appreciation to you guys! Thank u so much for taking time off your work/ studies / activities to rush down to Mediacorp to support & watch me perform. It was an honour to be performing for you guys. :)
And to friends that messaged to support and encouraged me. I love you all!

Sorry i teared so uncontrollably on national TV after the results yesterday... i definitely am not trying to win sympathy ok! :P

My tears were 10% for being booted out and 90% for you my family and friends. I was overwhelmed, to see you all, people who are so dear to me cheering and supporting me on, despite already knowing that i was eliminated. and this i feel further up my emotions and tears

no doubt i was disappointed about being booted out, but after much thought i guess the person whose most qualified to be out was.... me.
I did my best and though it was not good enough for the judges, i felt it was a personal breakthrough, to stand on stage to perform for thousands out there (i dun even get the chance to present at work during meetings) and to smoothly deliver everything that i had train for - no hiccups during my dance and acting, and that night was my best. Hope you all did enjoy that bit.

Being the greenhorn that i am, i did not expect much. The only expectation of myself was that each time i stand on stage for the public, my friends and my family, i must do better than my previous and this i'm sure, i did it that night. From my first embarrassing stage appearance during the press conference, to my very last stage performance on the competition night, i can feel the difference and how i was growing less nervous with each chance that i have.
Hopefully, i will have the chance again to perform and continue to see myself grow in this aspect.
Being a top 20 was a already a very huge gift to me from the divine powers that i believe in. And I'm really thankful that i have this wonderful competition to mark as one of the milestone I've achieved in this lifetime.
An event which i can look back at when I'm older, smile and say "I pursued a dream & I got my chance of living it" :)

Live your dream people! Its wonderful to know that you made it happen!!

p.s This post was written many weeks ago but it will be what i feel for the rest of my life.

the one about...Revival

Well... I'm not sure if its revival or good bye.

Its been a good long time my last entry. I'm finally free to be sitting in front of my PC and thinking of what i should do next.
For the first time this year i'm not feeling exhuasted. Work has so taken its toll and given me tonnes of accumulated tired tokens.

I'm officially on my one month break, this month would probably not be any less busy but i'm thankful that this opportunity came along and i'm finally doing different for a change.

I'm under contract to not reveal much about it, but to all dear friends who knows whats gonna be happening..
Thank you for all your encouragements and constant support and all your calls to check on whats happening. It warms my heart to know you guys care this much. :)

To my dear relatives who helped out on Sunday, words can't describe how thankful i am for you all being there. Thank u all so so much!

My hair's been cut, but no pictures though, for some strange reason, i feel that taking pictures alone by meself seemed to be the weirdest action alive. So yeap heres the offical announcement that I've finally gotten over my photo-whoring phase, without much effort or cold turkey treatment.
You know its over when one day, you search your computers for "recent pictures of yourself" & realise you have none & you simply refuse to whip out a camera to capture that "recent picture".

I think work contributed to the death of photo-whoring. It leaves u dead tired everyday & nothing ever seems fun anymore.
All i want to do everyday, is to sit & stone and not think about anything that gives me even a wee bit of stress. Kinda like preppin myself to welcome the alzhiemer disease.

So within this month, i shall use this break to bring myself back to live. To love all those things i used to love about living. To find back my passion!

Yes!!!