Shopping!!

I am back from Thailand! Land of smiles and a thousand DISCOUNTS!

I went with a 1/4 filled luggage bag and returned home with 1 luggage + 1 huge gym bag packed to the brim! Superb fun and simply broke - think you guys should be able to find me at the grass patch around Tanjong Pagar area till the end of this month.

My only complaint though is - no sleep! Bangkok is definitely not the place if you are looking for somewhere to recharge yourself. We (Lily, Ian and me!) were sleeping late every single day and waking up darn early just so that we could shop. We were just that close to becoming shopa-lunatics but then again lookin at the things we got! It was worth every single effort. hahaha.

Bangkok is a Ladies haven as we all know, so poor Ian Loo Loo has nothing much to shop for other than just T-shirts. Luckily, he was a great sport and followed us up and down the HUGE Platinum shopping centre shopping for stuff which is mostly ours.
And best part of it - he was suffering a flu then. Really amazing he survived. haha. Thanks Mr Loot Lee Yen.. :P

Enuff of my ravings. I shall again let the pictures do the talking.

Wonder

It is only months ago when i was deeply troubled, badly disappointed and totally dejected and upset about life and a person.

I can now see the light now, i can see myself walking towards it and i know, i am just moments away from reaching the end of this dark, horrible, filthy tunnel to move on to see and enjoy the beautiful pasture thats awaiting me.

I wonder how will i fare in that new surrounding, will i maintain the beauty that greeted me forever will i be just a passerby of this beautiful pasture? Will i be walking into another dark, uglier tunnel without enjoying myself?

I wonder...

Finally 2006

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on,
our troubles will be miles away.

Here we are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.

Through the years
We all will be together,
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself A merry little Christmas now.

I sang this song during Christmas, while out carolling and heard it again while watching "Family Stone" - now i'm in LOVE with this song, especially the third verse.

Christmas Carolling was fantastic, It is the best possible way to spend Christmas. Going from house to house to spread the Christmas cheer via Praise and Songs. Each time we sang, each time i find my heart feeling the warmth, my chest becomes tight and time seems to slow. I felt the place went quiet even though everyone around me was singing at the top of their voices, i felt peaceful. It is absolutely without a doubt the nicest Christmas i ever had done in my entire 21 yrs. I would definitely do it again next year, if i have the chance. Ah yu and Kel - Thanks for inviting me!

New Year eve was just as fantastic. Eve was spent with my family and relatives hanging around Toa Payoh HDB hub shopping at Bossini Sale till 11 plus... Before ending up at Bossini, we were actually trying our hardest to think of where we should go to countdown to new year but once they step foot into that shop. Our problem was solved. =D

New Year Day and 2nd Day of New Year was the best of the BEST - I spent both days with friends who mattered to me. Had a complimentary hotel stay thanks to my mum at Grand Parkroyal Hotel. Service sucked thanks to a weird accented non-local receptionist, who decided she has to start off the New year by being a pain-in-the-ass but - no matter.

The rest of the night was so happening that she failed her mission of irritating me - Miserably. Ber and Jia was first to reach and we all had dinner at Uma Uma. I give their Ramen 7/10, really quite nice.
After dinner, we initially plan to go grocery shopping for tidbits and playing cards but then due to requests by Amber and Ceyu we ended up at Addidas. After hanging around the shop for bout 20 mins, we finally proceeded to Marketplace@Raffles where we irritated ber with our 'So qiao' game. Funny Berber, seriously i dun tink we will so much fun if she didnt get irritated everytime we use it. Haha.

Hotel stay first few hour was boring because of Mich whose coming soon turned out to be a few hours long and because we thought she was coming soon, we didnt buy the poker cards. We ended up watching tv. Mich finally appeared at dunno what hour with Shawn and then we started having playing the infamous and totally hilarious 'Stock Exchange' game. It works like the usual 'Heart Attack' but instead of quietly passing the cards, we bid for the number of cards we wanna exchange. It was pretty organised during the first few game till eventually we gave up on bidding and just Snatch whatever cards that was being passed around. Lily came down much much later and we played the same game again.
It sounds boring, tryin to explain it in text.

Funny moments:
1. Shawn splashing water at entrance of toilet to the wash basin, Jia flushing a whole cup of green tea down the toilet bowl and Ber downing a cup of gween tea just so not to be last.
2. Me pulling Shawn out of the curtain to hide inside it just so not to be last.
3. Shawn hitting Jia, then ask Jia if it was painful thus causing Jia to increase her level of stupidity up to Shawn's level; Jia did the same by asking Ceyu a question and increasing ah yu to her level; Mich did the same too by asking some really logical questions that everyone chose to ignore, but i just had to answer and immediately i was promoted up to her level.
4. Mich anxiously wanting to get off the bed thus pushing Big Shawn off-balance in the event of doing so.
5. Steven's unforgettable 'Peui Peui' silencer gun instead of our usual revolver that goes 'Bang'

But the main thing is I had alot of fun and laughed my hardest during that night. We all suffered some form of injury at the end of the game. Jia won us all with the biggest bruise on her knee.

New Year Day 2
Went to catch a movie with Mr Loo and chilled out at Liquid Kitchen the rest of the afternoon following which I went to Mr Loo's fwen place for a shower. Haha. Weird thing to do though its my first time being there but yeap i showered coz i didnt have time to bathe before heading out to watch the movie. :P

His friend place is very amazing ah. Super nice view overlooking river valley and walkable distance to town. So shoik. Played a few games of Bridge there before heading to meet the girls again for dinner at Newton. Over at Newton we makan like no tomorrow. 7 of us ordering up to 90 bucks worth of food. Yummy.
Though this time there were no games; just chilling, eating and yakking away with the girls was enjoyment of a different kind.

The night ended with Dee sending us all back to home. Thanks sweetie for sending me home despite the ultimate out of the way route.

I had a wonderful time and i cant tink of any better way to be spending my New Year then the way it had happened. Thank you all for making it happen, for coming to the hotel and for staying beside me when i was at my lowest and downest.

With you all
- i managed to walk through a terrible breakup without making a fool of myself
- i found happiness
- i found the strength and will to be strong
- i know i will always be loved and cared no matter what
- i realise the world is still as lovely and wonderful as how i've known it to be

2006 has been wonderful so far and i'm optimistic that it'll get better.

Happy New Year all!

A usual working day

Today is another sian (boring) working day.

I’m thrown with the task of coming up with proposals AGAIN! I thought this was a job supposedly done by SENIOR MANAGEMENT? Why do I keep being dumped with such responsibilities when I feel like I still know the minimal things in this industry?
I feel good having such opportunities but yet I feel handicapped. I have ideas swimming in my head but then I do not know the feasibility or are they too far-fetched? I dunch know and I dun wanna appear stupid or cranky in front of my bosses when i finally do preach the ideas to them.
It’s do or die. So I will do. No choice - rules of life.

Just ended half an hour of game-cube gaming with my colleague Edmund, using the excuse "trying if it works" =P.
Played a fighting game with Mario, Pikachu and Ice Climber as the main characters and they are suppose to fight with each other by slapping the opponent out of the screen Very very cute.

Now is end work hour, weather outside is gloomy. From my office I can see - central Singapore looks like its raining. haha.

I have new gadget to play with! The Microsoft Dopod – it has built in 3G, Bluetooth, wi-fi and many others features that one way or another has been missing in the current PDA’S. The ONE AND ONLY bao ka liao PDA. Just laid my hands on it this afternoon and it will be mine for the following few weeks - only. huhuhu, simply love my job :p

Before I end, I think I will be changing template again. I screwed up my current one, see the “Friends Ranting” it’s not aligned! Pissed off… my html skills is not that power afterall.
Any kind souls who can help me would be greatly appreciated.

Life is as such...

In my short 21 years of living on this beautiful place called earth. I’ve been disappointed many times but seldom will I be disappointed to the point where I get disgusted.

So far there is only one. And now there is another…
Sadly that recent one was a person I was with for past 2 years.
My latest Sherlock Holmes stint uncovered more truth than I wished for and finally finally I know I’m at the end of this journey. I feel relieved.

I am disgusted, bewildered and shell shocked. It seemed, overnight, he became the devil’s advocate and it scares the hell out of me.
That being said - if I had the chance to redo everything again, I would STILL choose the same path I took to find out the entire truth.

I feel so drained, so tired and very frightened.
I dated a schemer, who handles things in ways so appalling, I feel nauseous when I reflect upon it. The whole truth, the complete situation, the entire picture is clearly embossed in my head. It frightens me to know, he is a person of such. I am in denial to believe that he is that way.
I wished many times I never had to see this, in fact I never knew he had such a sordid side. I stare at our pictures, in place of fond memories, I feel revolted.

I feel fine, now that I have the whole picture.
Am I hurt? Not so, in fact I feel it is none at all. It sounds artificial but I really do feel at peace.
Knowing he has someone else doesn’t pain me. I feel neutral. In fact I am bemused at how unaffected I am. I am unsure why but a part of me; sincerely wish that he and she would turn out well.
It sounds weird and incoherent but I really do wish him to be happier.

I’m surprised at my feelings. Am I that gracious? I wonder… Perhaps it’s the jazz music, or it could be the spirit of Christmas, or just the love of friends which makes this world less bleak.

When I’m upset - I cry, whine and sob; when I’m cool and composed – I doubt myself on my own words and graciousness. Live is such – so full of contradictions.

Perhaps the anger might arise again - I really won’t know. But I’m happier today..