on big bad moves

Suddenly, just suddenly, i feel that I am no longer the same.
Sadly, sadly, i feel that age is indeed sinking in. Despite my relentless bickering towards friends who tease me about my age.
我要甩掉忧愁；甩掉成熟。
That me in younger days, naive and happy, I prefer it that way.
Somewhere. It could still be there。
Perhaps it was a bad decision to step into the real world, and perhaps this is the 'reward' you reap for your own bad move.
找回单纯，青春，快乐。
也许快乐不一定是要把梦想实现才会有的。但是，我能做到吗？