about Granny's 75th Bday

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Third highlight of the week was my granny birthday celebration! My Ah ma is 75 years old and to celebrate we had a nice sumptious dinner at a Tze Char restuarant in Bedok. Dinner was spent, chit-chatting with my cousins and watching how the older cousins tease the younger ones and how the younger cousin will fume and sulk and then serveral mins later, resume joking around and opening themselves to another round of teasing.

I love the fact that my parents makes the effort to strengthen ties with our extended family by organizing meetups and going back to my grandma's place every weekend. I've heard of many friends who tells me stories of how they only meet their cousins once a year, or things like not knowing their cousins' name and some even shared information of how there is a possibility that they might walk pass their cousin along the street and not know that they're related at all. I think thats so scary and worrying, whatever is happening to kinship?

So a short note to my dearest cousins:
I always have tonnes of fun whenever we are together and I'm glad that after so many years, we're still in close contact with one another. I would love to see you all grow up, get married, be around to see your baby when they appear and be updated on all the major milestones in your life.
Likewise, i would love to share all my life miracles with you all ...so lets work towards making this happen ya? :) Love ya all. Muackz.

Our BIG family portriat

about dress sho-ping

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the other fun event that happened was with my girl pals; we met up one fateful day after a loooong day of work and walked around Isetan shopping for a dress to wear at Wendy's Wedding. Besides shopping, our other objective was of course to take pictures! It's been ages since we took some group photos and even if we did, it usually ends up in de hands of people who don't send pictures like Wendy, Rekha and sometimes Denyse but think I'll better not name names.

After sho-ping and dinner, with a camera, we found a corner at Wisma Atria and went wild posing prettily, diva-ly, weirdly etc.

I always believe. Fun is not what you always what you do, but who you do it with that matters. So a simple thing like taking random pictures became the highlight of that evening because I had so much fun snapping them, and taking turns having my picture being snapped.
Their reaction time impressed me the most, no matter how messy and unorganized everyone was moments ago, upon seeing the camera is up and ready to snap, all of them can & will spontaneously pose and be camera ready in less than a second! So here are the pictures that night.

After trying like so many thousands pieces of champange gold dresses, only I ended up buying a lovely white cocktail dress seen in the fitting room pictures, while the rest decided not to buy, after sooo much hustle -_-".

But since we always have loads of fun, more meetups = more fun times! :D

about our domestic helper of 12 years...

Okie, so I haven't been blogging as much. Too much events had happen since my last post, so I shall attempt to do a summary highlighting the worth-mentioning.

My blog has been discovered by my Star Search supporters-turn-friends. I'm not sure if I'm really comfortable with the idea because I am a Pretty Private Person thus my initials PPP (ok. That's corny). But then that statement contradicts too because no one forced me to create a blog account. I willingly created one and willingly posted details about my life and fully understands that all these stuff can easily be searched and made available on the World Wide Web. So why should I even be whining?

So Hello Evonne and Joyce welcome to my world!

Now back to the highlights.

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My domestic helper, whom I call Aunty Joyce, has worked for us for 12 good years. And now she has finally decided that it was time to bid us farewell and so it was back to the airport again on 25 th Nov 07.
It's been only 2 weeks since she left, but my entire family, we're kinda missing her already because my new aunty, she can't really cook. I hope her cooking will improve soon, I miss nice, yummy home-cooked soup.

We took pictures again... heres some to share..

My sister's best friend

One last shot :)

about mindless thoughts...

My brain never stops thinking. Even when I am busy rushing for a freaking deadline, the moment I stop work for that brief second to think of what next to write, my mind wanders off.

So here's some random thought that came up when my mind went wandering:

1. Why do some people use their right hand to hold their mobile phone on the left ear, when their left hand is free or vice versa? Some even do it the more acrobatic way of raising their hand behind their head and hold it that way throughout the train journey.

2. PJ shared some prank about wearing an astronaut suit and then getting someone to fart into the air pipe and how the guy vomited in the suit coz he couldn’t take the smell. then i got thinking; has anyone ever fainted in the toilet because their own fart/crap was too smelly for themself to bear?

3.Shopping! I still havent got over this money-depleting, only-for-the-rich addiction. I need to stop thinking which style of shoe am i still lacking and i SO should have gotten that dress when it was available.
This is the dress that i miss dearly.
Now its sold out. Shatz. Life suck! -_-

about Why my Engrish so poor!

I have a deadline to meet. But I reckon 10 minutes of blogging won’t kill me right? (I hope ~!).

Anyway some updates after my incessant complains of feeling lousy at work.

I am working on a new project, doing up marketing kit for the company. Yeah! Finally a job scope after being back so long. So with my mediocre English, I have to attempt using fanciful words to present the company’s past project in the best light, no matter how plain or dry or boring it is. So freaking tough!! For once, I so wish I was an Ah neh w good command of ang moh.

Anyway my point is I’ve always known my English was average and all but I just found out that I am shallow too?
I was surfing around Thesaurus.com trying to find more sophisticated words to replace the word ‘worry’ when I came across the word ‘Intercourse’. The immediate word that I linked ‘intercourse’ to was ‘Sex’ and following on; I realize I don’t know about any other meaning for that word.

Ehh…Is it me or is it just that this word has only one meaning?
Enlighten me prease u good English people out there!

about Finally its the Finals~

Finally its all over. The winner has been crowned and its no other than Mr Andie Chen 'Guan' Jun.

I should have known from the start, his name says it all. Now i know besides talent maybe name does help increase chances of winning too. ;p

Besides the really good performance by the 6 of them, I had a really good time at the post event party too! Saw president Nathan and wife up close. Saw Felicia up close and snapped a picture with her too!!! groupie -_-

about Cute paper art...

Christmas is nearing. I like Christmas. But i might be broke. so maybe i shall make these cute paper monsters for my friends. Budget and nice :)

Marcus! birthday coming ah? Tell me which design you like, i make for you. (",)

the one about wedding dinner...

Yesterday after dinner with the ladies, I was just zealously upbeat.

Maybe it’s because there’s Amber, Ching, Denyse, PeiJia, Rekha and Wendy or maybe it’s just the Fish & Chip. It was so fun and we were laughing so loud while discussing about what to do for Wendy’s Wedding (Yes yes yes! She’s tying the knot!). At the end of the dinner, no real decisions were made but still its fun because having the full attendance of all 7 of us is quite rare these days.

While on my way back in the train, I sat beside a lady who was reading a book. I gave a glance and noticed that it was quite a thick book, but there are only a few liners on each page and I thought why would someone buy something so bo hua unless it related to religion. Then being the typical nosey person, I inched my head nearer to have a better look at what kinda of bo hua book it is and partly to entertain my restless self during the journey.
So there I getting into the role of an ostrich, sitting, squinting and elongating my head to try to read a few lines from the book. And this is what I saw, not the exact words… but it goes something like this.

Do not search for God
Instead, search for your dreams.
Only when you are happy can you bring others Happiness.

Aww~ so inspiring.

the one about Google is now GOD?

While doing some online researchI came across this article.
Ok, i would advise against reading if you're not a techie geek because its nothing funny or stupid etc. On the contrary its just darn good knowledge.

Google also got hell one lei.. Dun play play.

the one about the times i miss.

I miss those times. I miss the people.





Its almost over soon. Its time I move on.

the one about Saturday..

While the world is out partying, dressing up as monsters on a Saturday to celebrate Halloween.

I stayed home to watch "200 Pounds Beauty". (Maria! Ave Maria!!!) and it made me happier.
I love what movies can do to change one's mood. One of the reason why I took the chance and participated in SS was because I want to be the person, changing people's mood from sorrow to inspired toooo. Yey! Yey Yeyyy!

For today, movie cheered me up.

Movies and their mood altering ability:
Movies about Love - makes me look forward to loving again
Movies about dreams - pushes me to make my dream happen
Movies about hate/feud/cruel - reminds me how fragile the world is and we must learn to be tolerant and love everyone
Movies with cute lead actors - gives me a benchmark of how my next partner should look like. (the lead actor is so so so so so so charming.yummy.. *salivates*)



Coincidentally the show is about chatlines & phone sex too! at this point of my life when i'm so disgusted by it. It gives me a clue to who are the ladies whose actually behind those sexy voices.
I feel better and I have nothing against them but i have loads of things against the despos who call. Burt anyway.

Mood: Hyper and Chirpy

the one about mole-ology...

First, check your face for any moles, and then look at the diagram above to identify the number(s) that are a closest match to the moles on your face. Usually, the moles only hold meaning for you if they are prominent and they are the only one. If your face if full of spots, acne or "little" moles, they do not count. When you've ascertained which position corresponds to the mole on your face, look up the meanings listed by numbers below.

Position 1 to 3 >>As a child, you are somewhat rebellious and a free spirit. You have an innate creativity and work best when you are given a free hand. Generally, your superiors like your avante garde approach to life. If you have a mole here, you are far better off in business and being your own boss rather than working for somebody. What is promising is that you have the luck to be your own boss.

Position 4 >>You are an impulsive person, often acting with a flamboyance that gives you charisma and a sparkling personality, but you can be difficult when there are too many opinions. You tend to be rather argumentative, but never to the point of holding grudges. This mole tends to give you an explosive temper and should you decide to remove it, you will find yourself becoming calmer and more at peace with the world.

Position 5 >>A mole above the eyebrow indicates that there is wealth luck in your life, but you will need to earn it and work harder than most people. All the income you make must be carefully kept as there are people who are jealous of you who might attempt to sweet talk you into parting with your wealth. Be wary of those who try to interest you in get-rich-quick schemes. If you have a mole here, it is advisable not to be too trusting of others. Follow your instincts and be cautious. And never allow other people to control your finances.

Position 6 >>A mole here indicates intelligence, creativity and skill as an artist. Your artistic talent can bring you wealth, fame and success. It also indicates wealth luck, but this can only be fully realized if you follow your heart rather than stick to conventional means of making a living. Success will come if you are brave.

Position 7 >>Moles under the eyebrows indicate arguments within the extended family that cause you grief and unhappiness. This will affect your work and livelihood. It is advisable to settle any differences you have with your relatives if you want peace of mind to move ahead.

Position 8 >>This is not a very good position for a mole. Your financial position will constantly be under strain because of a tendency to overspend. You also have a penchant for gambling. The only thing is you must know when to stop. Meanwhile, someone with a mole here has a tendency to flirt with members of the opposite sex as well as with the same sex. Better be a little discerning where you exert your charms, or you might get into trouble.

Position 9 >>This mole position suggests sexual and other problems. It is an unfortunate mole and you are well advised to get rid of it. It brings a litany of woes and a parade of problems.

Position 10 >>A mole here just under the nose indicates excellent descendants luck. You are surrounded by family at all times and will have many children and grandchildren. You have the support of those close to you and will be both materially and emotionally fulfilled.

Position 11 >>Moles here suggest a tendency to succumb to illness. It is a good idea to have this mole removed especially if it is a large, dark-coloured mole. Otherwise use lots of foundation to cover it.

Position 12 >>A mole here foretells a successful but also a very balanced life. You are likely to be not just rich, but famous as well. But although you have every opportunity to live the high life, you will have a satisfying home and family life as well. Women with moles here are particularly lucky and tend to be beautiful and glamourous as well.

Position 13 >>Your children will be a big worry in your life. Your relationship with them is not good. There is nothing much you can do about this except to learn some tolerance.

Position 14 >>A mole here suggests a vulnerability to food which can be a big problem in your life. You may have allergies against certain foods or you may simply be eating too much.

Position 15 >>You are a person always on the move and constantly renovating and redesigning your house. You like to be introduced to new things and see new places. You are not happy if you remain in one place for long. You enjoy travel and adventure, and have a very observant eye.

Position 16 >>You need to be careful when it comes to eating, and also when it comes to your sex life. These are your two biggest problems. You tend to have weight issues which can make you depressed. You enjoy romance, sometimes with more than one person, but because you are a person with some morality, you will feel guilty about it and this will cause you much stress.

Position 17 >>You will be someone of great social prominence. You are active on the social scene and an excellent conversationalist. There is a tendency to become bigheaded about your success, which could lose you your good name. This will affect you deeply because you draw your confidence and self worth from what others think of you.

Position 18 >>You are a person always on the move. There is a great deal of overseas travel in your life, but you should take extra care each time you cross the great waters, as your mole prefers you to stay at home.

Position 19 >>You have money luck and many good friends, so this is a good mole to have. Your weakness is that you tend to succumb to the charms of the opposite sex. In your life, it is this that could get you into hot water, so do cool your ardour!

Position 20 >>A mole here can be very lucky or very unlucky. If you have a mole here, you are destined either for extreme fame or infamy. You have great flair for creativity and are also highly intelligent, but your talents can be used for both good and bad. You are not a person to be trifled with for you are no pushover and do not forgive and forget easily. This mole is a mark of someone who will go down in history either as a great or as a tyrant.

Position 21 >>This is a good mole, as it suggests plenty to eat and drink throughout your life. This mole also brings fame and recognition.

Position 22 >>Your life is always happy and things go smoothly for you. You could well become a sports superstar if you have the passion for it. Moles at the end of eyebrows also suggest a person of authority and power, so if you are the CEO of a company, you will do very well.

Position 23 >>You have a high IQ, and you are both brain smart and street smart. You have a highly-developed survival instinct and will lead a meaningful and long life. You will be active until a very old age and will have friends and family around you till the very end.

Position 24 >>You will achieve fame and fortune in your young age and you are advised to use this period to safeguard your old age, as people with moles here tend to have a harderlife as they get older.

Position 25 >>You will enjoy good prosperity and recognition luck, but do be careful of excesses. Stay traditional in your attitudes and you will have a long and fruitful life.

the one about having friends.

Its true.. I feel really down. but luckily there is a blog and good friends that reads it.

Thanks PJ! Thanks Wendy! :)

quoting from my new found friend Jayine -"good friends are like good wine - the older the better"

My days will get better. Yes it will. Only when you know sadness, then will you appreciate happiness. :)

Mood: Optimistic

"Life is too short to be sad. Life is too short to be dishonest. Life is too fragile to have Liars around"

These words sounds vaguely familar. Have i heard it somewhere? Have i said it during one of my depressing days? I can't remember, but I believe in every single word.

Living around for 23 years, having been attached for the past 5 years. I have learnt, through hits and misses - honesty is the foundation of a relationship. So why is it, some people never get the chance to learn about this fact of life? How do they believe that relationship exists without trust?

I'm bewildered. I'm mentally drained. Is a peaceful, trusting, happy relationship EVER possible. Please someone. Tell me!


Mood rating: Drained, braindead, hungover.

the one about Face-booking

Have you “facebook-ed” yet? I have! (Yahoo offered a freaking billion to buy it over!!)

Isn’t it just like Friendster? Ok, besides those gazillion weird applications that allows you to have fish tanks, slap friends, vampire bite friends, give eggs that hatches to weirder stuff (which is totally DUH~), I’m back to, isn’t it just LIKE Friendster?

That being said, I do have to give credit to some interesting features like, tagging of faces in photos, Scrabulous and uploading of photo albums to your own account. Then again, when you look at the bottom line basic…. Isn’t just another Friendster?

the one about Ratty Luck for 2008...

Uncle Tan shared this link with me regarding our Ratty luck for next year…
can check it out here!

http://www.cashstream.tv/FortuneTeller_Mise.php

the one about me... happier already...

I’m back from lunch and I’m feeling happier!
Thanks to yummy food and Yami yoghurt! Yeap, there’s a new outlet @ ICON. Yey! Yey! Yey!

The other thing which made me happier is of course, online shopping! They are absolutely distracting but cheap coz i dun usually buy them…
I have been in the crazy shopping mood for the past few months! It’s like a drug addiction and I crave for it, every time I stand in front of my wardrobe and wonder what to wear. It really takes a lot of discipline from me to stop me from walking into a shop.

I really need to go cold Turkey soon… Else I can make do with shopping at flea markets~ J I went to one last Sunday and it was heaven… I got 4 dresses, a belt and hair band and only spent a total of $70 bucks! I’ll update some photos of my buys soon!

Meanwhile enjoy some pictures of D (in a dress) & Ber (just being a wacko)!

Ber totally refusing to stop shaking her head!

Dee looking sweet and pweety! wee-yu-weet

As I've said... Ber acting like wacko...

Ohhh and I’ve added a new section for online shopping places. More spree! yey!

the one about training train etiquettes...

I am grumpy and bitchy today. The world sucks; life sucks. I think I might fall into depression (or maybe I might not since I’m still aware that I could be falling into it).

I feel sick today, bitter about some issues, lousy about myself, mourning over a loss and hoping for the impossible. So I hereby declare – Oct 2007 Moodiest Pris Day (or month).

So this morning with my unmotivated, too-tired-to-be-positive soul, I was forcibly brought to work by my guilty conscience.

While on the NEL and I got a seat as usual. But what’s not so usual is halfway through the ride; a mum and her 5-6yr old child boarded the train and since there was only one empty seat, of course the mum gave the sit to her son, since he is so young anyway.
So anyway just when I thought this would be the end of the story, like how interesting can someone sitting down beside you be right?

Something happened, the little boy started shifting on his seat, kicking around and resting his DIRTY SHOE SOLE on my skirt!
I was like, ok he’s a little boy and he looks like he is suffering from those hyperactive kids illness or something. So being the compassionate me, I ignored his actions and tolerantly sat still and continued meddling with my DS (Legend of Zelda!). But who would have known! Minutes later his dirty shoe sole touched my skirt AGAIN and this time he swept DIRTY SHOE SOLE down my entire skirt and split seconds later he was standing on the seat and resting his entire weight on my arm and rocking himself back and forth with rhythm some more, totally irritating! @#@$@%

The mother also, standing right in front of him, seeing how her son is obviously annoying the crap out of public, I saw them before and previously the boy was doing the same thing to another girl on the train and on both incidents, she just stood there, REFUSING to stop him or do anything at all. Wah Kao! By now I was Sibei HOT, eh Aunty, obviously your son wants attention, wants you to sayang him or some shit like that right, just do it to placate him la! U stand there do nothing, show a defeated face, expect people to understand why he is acting this way!! Wah really man, it’s ‘model’ parents like her that just makes you NOT want to have kids. You dun TEACH how the F**K they know what they are doing is right or wrong!

I’m not so bothered if my skirt is soiled or not but what I am really bothered by is the action of his Mum. I hope she knows its doing him more harm than good. As it is he needs special and extra attention and yet when she seeing him doing things which obviously are irritating others, she doesn’t bother to correct him. Even a simple “boy, you are kicking someone, don’t do it” would have made him understand something.
Oh… maybe she might tell it to him when they alight from the train? Oh yes and him being only a 5-6 year child who’s labeled as hyperactive, I really wonder if he remembers what he did minutes ago.

Aiyah, anyway, its just my thoughts and its not my problem… so its back to work! 2 more days till weekends!

the one about my mum... my guardian angel

It was Mummy’s birthday last Friday 280907; a year has passed us once again.

I love Mum, she’s my pillar of strength, my superhero and everything I have now, is what she and dad has been giving me since the day I was born, even now at 23, it is still them giving me more than what I can reciprocate. I can never ever repay them fully for their love, but please dear Buddha, guide me to my path, show me what I can do, in my small little ways.

I love you Mummy. May you have good health always and may we bring you happiness everyday!

the one about competition behaviour analysis...

The silver lining behind the darken clouds.
To the eliminateds, never give up pursuing!

Last night was the first episode of the quarter finals. I was there as usual (really what’s new?). Result wise.. Being the patriotic Singaporean, Of coz i was glad Andie, Jeneen & Weilie got through. Though Kola being booted, was kind of surprising. I always thought that the judges loved her. But from past experience, having a juicy role seemed to be the factor that determine one's fate, instead of how well your acting is.

Besides mourning for the eliminated parties, I was more visibly upset about the vibes some contestants seemed to be emitting. I went home last night with a heavier then usual heart. The ugly truth was “showhand-ed” last evening. Besides the few peeps that I’ve bonded closely to, a few others seemed kinda “very surface”. Which I seriously don’t understand why, like why do they even bother doing that and to ME too? Hello?! I’m out, eliminated, no more fighting. So would a more sincere smile and conversation kill you?

Anyway doesn’t matter, I’ve made my share of good friends and ultimately, a competition will always be a competition. Hidden agendas, jealousy and snide remarks are just a few terms that will always be associated with competitions. It was just me being idealistic and silly to think that our relationship will survive the tribulations of the competition. But Humans are ugly, especially when you want to win and you know perhaps you might not have the whole package of deserving it. So you try other means to get there.

Moral of the story: Learn to open your eyes, be kind to fellow beings but also be clear of the situation and of coz be selective.

As Sze Han says... Life suck!

the one about my favourite song..

当我和世界不一样那就让我不一样
坚持对我来说就是以刚克刚
我如果对自己不行如果对自己说谎
即使你不原谅我也不能原谅
最美的愿望一定最疯狂
我就是我自己的神在我活的地方
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强
对爱我的人别紧张我的固执很善良
我的手越肮脏眼神越是发光
你不在乎我的过往看到了我的翅膀
你说被火烧过才能出现凤凰
逆风的方向更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡只怕自己投降
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强
就这一次让我大声唱
lalalala...
就算失望不能绝望...
lalalalala...
就这一次我和我的倔强

I love this song becauz it speaks of self-believe, passion and that never give up fighting for it.

the one about Star Search Top12...

Last night marks the final round of the Star Search Preliminary Round. Somehow everything seems calmer, less crying, less drama - or maybe its just because there are lesser people to crowd the stage as the week passes on.

So now all 12 finalist are out! Can check out the Star Search webbie to find out who they are. Congratulations to all of them, please do me a kind favor and NOT ask me who I think will win.

While surfing through some polls on xin.sg, i came across the photo shoot that we did during the earlier days and playing back those images of what went on at the photo shoot that day brings a smile to my face.

Looking at the photos, I remember what a hard time we had that day, trying to angle our face to capture the light, so that we will all have seemingly super sharp jawline.
To top it off, we all had to do the Jawline jawline thing without smiling (aka acting cool) and for the first time in my life, i felt that not smiling was the hardest thing to do ever!
Because of the way my lips were structured, i keep getting comments like, eh this picture cannot la, she's smiling!! and i would be thinking "eh! i never smile wat! I really never smile! why you all keep saying i SMILE! arrr!!"

In the picture above the message we were trying to give is "we are cool, but we are not proud beings", sooooo wat do you think? Did we manage to give you guys that "FEEL" (a term frequently used in the industry).

the one about back to work day 1...

After 2.5 months of break, I'm finally back, sitting on my same old table in my office. Nothing changed, just probably more construction sites appearing everywhere around Tanjong Pagar area.

Since morning, i have done absolutely nothing except surfing net, chatting, reading online papers, forums and blogging. Perhaps i should just leave early, since I'm basically - rotting, but then if i were to go off and end up shopping and spending again, then it seems perhaps i am better off sitting in front of this computer.

I was very unwilling to come to work this morning, but still i dragged myself here coz i needed $$$ to top up my depleting bank account. I even teared a little last night while transferring my stuff from my weekend bag to my work bag, it felt like i was being kicked out of my wonderland and back into the REAL WORLD. that feeling sucked.

Weeks ago, during the competition, i doubted & questioned myself many times, can i do it, do i love it, will i be able to deliver, can i handle the pressure bla bla bla. Even till the very last week prior to the competition, i still had those thoughts floating around my brain. I guess perhaps it was these uncertainties that brought about my elimination? or maybe not?

During my 2 weeks break, after watching more of us being eliminated and chatting with the people who made it into the semi's, i started feeling the loss and pain of being eliminated. I am darn envious.
I woke up one morning and realize how much i yearn to have a script to memorize and a character to play. The saying "you never know how much it means, till you lose it" never felt more apt.

the one about post competition

My Gal Pals with their respective partners, you girls rock!


To my dearest friends & family, no words can ever describe my gratitude & appreciation to you guys! Thank u so much for taking time off your work/ studies / activities to rush down to Mediacorp to support & watch me perform. It was an honour to be performing for you guys. :)
And to friends that messaged to support and encouraged me. I love you all!

Sorry i teared so uncontrollably on national TV after the results yesterday... i definitely am not trying to win sympathy ok! :P

My tears were 10% for being booted out and 90% for you my family and friends. I was overwhelmed, to see you all, people who are so dear to me cheering and supporting me on, despite already knowing that i was eliminated. and this i feel further up my emotions and tears

no doubt i was disappointed about being booted out, but after much thought i guess the person whose most qualified to be out was.... me.
I did my best and though it was not good enough for the judges, i felt it was a personal breakthrough, to stand on stage to perform for thousands out there (i dun even get the chance to present at work during meetings) and to smoothly deliver everything that i had train for - no hiccups during my dance and acting, and that night was my best. Hope you all did enjoy that bit.

Being the greenhorn that i am, i did not expect much. The only expectation of myself was that each time i stand on stage for the public, my friends and my family, i must do better than my previous and this i'm sure, i did it that night. From my first embarrassing stage appearance during the press conference, to my very last stage performance on the competition night, i can feel the difference and how i was growing less nervous with each chance that i have.
Hopefully, i will have the chance again to perform and continue to see myself grow in this aspect.
Being a top 20 was a already a very huge gift to me from the divine powers that i believe in. And I'm really thankful that i have this wonderful competition to mark as one of the milestone I've achieved in this lifetime.
An event which i can look back at when I'm older, smile and say "I pursued a dream & I got my chance of living it" :)

Live your dream people! Its wonderful to know that you made it happen!!

p.s This post was written many weeks ago but it will be what i feel for the rest of my life.

the one about...Revival

Well... I'm not sure if its revival or good bye.

Its been a good long time my last entry. I'm finally free to be sitting in front of my PC and thinking of what i should do next.
For the first time this year i'm not feeling exhuasted. Work has so taken its toll and given me tonnes of accumulated tired tokens.

I'm officially on my one month break, this month would probably not be any less busy but i'm thankful that this opportunity came along and i'm finally doing different for a change.

I'm under contract to not reveal much about it, but to all dear friends who knows whats gonna be happening..
Thank you for all your encouragements and constant support and all your calls to check on whats happening. It warms my heart to know you guys care this much. :)

To my dear relatives who helped out on Sunday, words can't describe how thankful i am for you all being there. Thank u all so so much!

My hair's been cut, but no pictures though, for some strange reason, i feel that taking pictures alone by meself seemed to be the weirdest action alive. So yeap heres the offical announcement that I've finally gotten over my photo-whoring phase, without much effort or cold turkey treatment.
You know its over when one day, you search your computers for "recent pictures of yourself" & realise you have none & you simply refuse to whip out a camera to capture that "recent picture".

I think work contributed to the death of photo-whoring. It leaves u dead tired everyday & nothing ever seems fun anymore.
All i want to do everyday, is to sit & stone and not think about anything that gives me even a wee bit of stress. Kinda like preppin myself to welcome the alzhiemer disease.

So within this month, i shall use this break to bring myself back to live. To love all those things i used to love about living. To find back my passion!

Yes!!!

the one about watch movie...

I caught two movies in two consecutive nights.

I watched Blood Diamond last evening and "Night at the Museum" on Wed.

Blood Diamond is so depressing, i never knew so much conflict and blood was shed just for the sake of a tiny little stone that reflects light.
A life is taken just so that a stone can be don all shining and pretty on our fat,thin,skinny long necks. Kids are forced to join rebels, made to kill, fed with drugs. Families are forced apart just to make them live in fear all for the sake of diamonds!
Its pure senseless killing la, luckily now there's no more such things according to the movie disclaimer.
Heng man, Midway thru the movie i almost wanted to whisper to Ernest that i dun think i will want a diamond ring liao. Luckily i keep my mouth shut till end of the show...

"Night at the Museum" was very funny and heart warming. Wun wanna post any spoilers. Just wanna say.. "DUMB DUMB GIVE ME GUM GUM.... DUMB DUMB"..

=D

the one about online quizzies II...

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

This website is very encouraging. i like it...

You Are a Soft Kisser

Your kissing style is understated, but effective You give soft, sweet, and soulful kisses to your special guy And that's the key: he's got to be special to get your kiss Because you don't just go around kissing anyone

What's Your Kissing Style?
They got this one right. Not bad..

You Are Low Maintenance

Otherwise known as "too good to be true" You're one laid back chica - and men love that! Just remember that no good guy likes a dormat. So if you find your self going along to get along... Stop yourself and put up a little bit of a fight.

Are You High Maintenance?

Wah say. making me feel super good. "too good to be true sial"

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

Ernest! See see! I'm a Total Catch! I'm totally estatic..

the one about online quizzies...

I got bored at work and decided to surf around a bit and came to here... The site of many many quiz...

I feel like i'm back in school. My work motivation is 50% of wat it used to be..
Back then i would be busily doing work and not think of skiving but now... my boss is like the discipline master... only when she's around then i will be doing more work related stuff.. else majority of my sites are... not exactly very work related..

The one about my desktops...

My PC desktop on a usual day

the one about the New Year Hype...

Its back to work day 5 for the year of 2007.

If there's one thing i hate most, its growing up and working.

This year for the first time in 22 years, i actually feel that New Year Day parties and celebrations with Fireworks, count-downs and all other gimmicky cheesy things to welcome the new year is part of a big conspriracy by the many marketeers out there to make a bigger profit margin for selling the same products, items and services.

This year for some strange reasons, I couldn't find the enthusiam to be out partying. I envied PJ and Yao the most for staying home to watch DVD.

The over-hype irks the shit out of me, wats the great big deal! They act like they can only have this much fun when counting down to the new year, and partying any other time of the year is never as fun like that... Just can't understand Loserssssssss like them... After all the new year bullshit, we all still go back to the same office, same responsibilities, same colleagues, same everything...
so really What's with the HYPE?!

It's just another usual day, week and month. Only real difference is how you write the date and mayb more global warming..