Because a dear pal left a comment on my oh-so-forgotten blog, i'm suddenly awaken to its existence again.

Life has been pretty pleasant recently.
Quite a few changes, but thankfully good changes. Challenging decisions have been thrown my way and decisions have been made, though i'm still not sure if they were the right ones, I shall hope for the best.

October has been really busy and not so busy. Hmm.. it sounds weird but yea, its that conflicting and confusing.

This Oct I'm guilty of:
- not working hard enough
- spending all my time with my boyfriend
- not spending enough time with my friends
- not sending greetings or well wishes on time (if i forgot pls forgive me)

Love is bittersweet, like dark chocolates. Maybe you think that you wont like it, but after you tried it, you realise you grow to like it. I can't really seem to figure out why that statement came about, it has something to do with relationship, it has been really wonderful so far except for moments when we over react and our emotions cloud our rationality.
I'm not sure, if relationships like this will endure through time, but I'm glad we have similar perspective on issues that matter.
This blog has been in existence for many years, I have forgotten if I've sounded so idealistic everytime I get into a relationship. Maybe some of you might go "there-she-goes-again". But i guess, I'm still "I-still-believe". Like they say "Leopard never change its spots."

I shall leave it at this for now.

I so miss you all my dearest friends! Take care & Good night!

p.s. Happy Birthday October Babies: Nic BB Ang, Nicole Sailormoon Zeching, Jason BFF Wong, Kevin...

I'm back frm Taiwan!
I'm feeling mixed.
Glad to be back from all the tired shopping and rushing. And sad to be back to reality.
But it was a really fun trip.
Feeling a lil sick now, thank god, it only happened after the trip.

Im so excited to share everything. Will slowly update in bits & pieces when i feel better.

Miss you all!

Holy Hell.

That skip-a-beat delight of seeing someone u least expect.
That genuine smile that follows.
That comforting warmth that overwhelms your entire self.
Today, i felt the joy of being surprised.

Mum said parents these days are "二十四孝父母"。
I can't agree more.
Cliche as it may sound, they really are the ones who make my darkest days bright.
Thank God I have them.

on love...responsibilites

This day I will marry my friend, the one I laugh with, live for, dream with, love
Author: Anonymous

I woke up to heavy news this morning. A close friend, seven months pregnant, found out that her hubby found another someone during this period where she's tediously carrying with her everywhere, their labor of love.

I am truly outraged by this news. What ever happen to responsibilities! What ever happen to that darn marriage vow he made in front of every one vowing to take care of his wife in sickness & health, the vow to be the faithful partner, the vow to love and cherish her till the day he shall live.
Are these words so commercialized & overused till no one ever sits down to understand its meaning anymore?
And off all times, he chose to do it at a time when she is most vulnerable. @#$!%$@#$

That was anger directed at the unfaithful husband of my friend. But to be fair, i know guys aren't the only ones out there taking on more pies than they can handle. I've heard many stories of my own kind, doing such things too.

I have my ideals about how my relationship should be and how relationships everywhere should generally be like. But at a-quarter-of-a-century-year-old, you soon realize, these ideals are just ideals.

At this age of my life, I've been through heart-wrenching situations where I've seen my closest and strongest friends crying their hearts out because of failed relationships, infidelity, fights etc etc. Some moved on to someone better, some eventually went back to those that hurt them.
For those that left the bad apple and found someone better, I am happy as a bunny!(?) that things turned out well for them, for friends that went back, I am worried, but I know better when it comes to forcing my opinion on someone blinded by love. And of course there are also situations which requires drastic solutions to the undeserving.

I've also heard of stories where really capable ladies, takes up the role of the third party - knowingly. It baffles me why. Hearing stories of them self validate, admitting they know that what they do is morally unacceptable in our society but yet continuing to do so because they claim they 'LOVE' the guy who just so happen to be married with a few kids and has a loving wife at home.
I try my best not to judge, but still I am truly baffled - there are still many other single guys out there, why even indulge that guy by letting him have more than one?! Why make another fellow female suffer the aches that we all loathe.

So what exactly is love? Is it possible for you to love two person at the same time? Is it so important that you can & should throw all responsibilities aside? What can you love about a guy who throws his responsibility aside for the ideals of love? What makes you so sure he won't throw you away after he is done with 'loving' you.


*this post ended with a deep long sigh. I used to think marriage should be for life. I still think the same and i don't see why that should change.*

I'm usually abit slow to catch up with all the hottest sites online, but while surfing fb (when i'm suppose to be studying - again, what's new), i came across this link called Fmylife. 

Its hilarious, a feel-good site for times when you feel your life sucked. Go check it out!

on rainbows

many many people have been seeing many many rainbow the past few days.

I didn't see it! :(

haha. I just wanna be in the 'in' crowd. Everyone blog about rainbow. I also blog.

I'm attempting to irritate. Ignore me.

on big bad moves

Suddenly, just suddenly, i feel that I am no longer the same.
Sadly, sadly, i feel that age is indeed sinking in. Despite my relentless bickering towards friends who tease me about my age.
我要甩掉忧愁；甩掉成熟。
That me in younger days, naive and happy, I prefer it that way.
Somewhere. It could still be there。
Perhaps it was a bad decision to step into the real world, and perhaps this is the 'reward' you reap for your own bad move.
找回单纯，青春，快乐。
也许快乐不一定是要把梦想实现才会有的。但是，我能做到吗？

on memories that never goes away

while flipping through my older diaries, i came across a hard copy of a photo i took with 2 great friends many years ago, during a trip to Bangkok.
The copy i printed, i realized, was erratically trimmed at the top, chopping our heads off. I panicked for a moment because i know for a fact, i no longer have the soft copy!

In a moment of frantic-panicky realization, i told myself, i must have blogged about it, since i was so happy then, so then i proceeded to go through all my blog entries, to find the forgotten picture which came across my path again.

This is what i was searching for. Thank god it is still around.



I miss those times.
When smiles and laughter happen so effortlessly.
And the brain worked less.

Nat Geo

I love this ad. :)

Bus Rides. A way to watch the world go by.

I love sundays & bus rides. Weekends are almost the only time i have to take long bus rides in the noon.

I have a love hate relationship with bus rides. 

I like it for the solitary experience. No matter how jam pack the bus is, me with my trusted IPOD, is just me, sitting alone, with many others strangers. Moving along familiar roads, reminiscing memories.

I wondered for quite a while now, when did i since, begin to enjoy such lonely moments. 

I could not recall, maybe its just a natural progression of growing up. 

Watching the greens, sitting in silence, reflecting; suddenly these unimaginable feelings of my pass feels like bliss. Am i innately an anti social being?

Today, during my bus ride, i saw:

1.  a usually empty nursery filled with people shopping for their new year plants - i realize, Lunar New Year is only 2 wks away, and yet i feel nonchalant. But the crowd did make me feel a lil festive. 

2. a flock of white birds flying really low in the sky - a captivating sight; i wished life was that carefree too

3. loads of lush green trees in seemingly forested areas - very soothing to the eyes and heart, i made a wish hoping that they will always stay as they are. I hate concrete forests.

I hate bus rides for the achy bum after the journey.